My Life With OCD

Loop-Dee-Loop

Sometimes I get stuck in a loop. I really want to do this one thing and can't get it out of my head. Its like a good idea but I doubt i'll ever get to hear it again, it's like a good book almost. It was so much fun but then.. ya...
And then I just get stuck in the thought and cant get past it. I can hardly think of anything else, I just think about the situation or idea and just... feel stuck I guess. I can't get it out of my head and all it is is some stupid game idea.
Its nothing special, its not even that great of a idea, its just.. stuck in my brain. It might not be that great of a idea but i want to do it but can't and it sucks. I'll probably never get to play it again but still I think about it and its annoying.

short chapter... what shall I do to make it longer...

I don't believe in fate or anything but sometimes I wonder if i have a purpose. Sometimes when I do something, I obsess about it and obsess about it before trying to figure out if I meant to do that, if I should have done it, or what. I'm rambling, I have no idea what I'm talking about I can't think very well.
I should probably just leave this at as a short chapter but I feel bad for doing that haha..

I should stop. My brain has been running bad since the other day. I had a dream... and he was in it and I've been off ever since then and I can't get him out of my mind now. Everything reminds me of him and I kinda miss him and it pisses me off. The dream pisses me off more because it was so real that if it were to happen in life IT WOULD BE JUST LIKE THAT!
What even is love? What's the purpose of love?

Enough of that stupid crap. Let's see more about loops... oh ya it's like a tornado of the same thing going over and over again.

It's not like my normal tornado though, it's more like a mini one within the big one. It's also a different feeling, when I obsess about certain ideas or people it feels different than my normal obsessions.
I'm more uneasy feeling and paranoid.
Eh I think that's enough I'm getting tired and like I said before I can't think.
Until next time!