They judge me

I go by gay

Sometimes queer sometimes happy

They see me they don't like me

For they call my lifestyle a disease

For a young gay man gay and happy

It's an abomination

This world filled with haters ,judging me every corner of everyday

Do you think life is fair?

I shouldn't have to hide my lover from the world

Nor should I have to hide our relationship

Nor should I be afraid to be myself in public

Having to show a different face

Cause I enact the laws they have against my race

A race where I'm gay .

It's easy for two females to kiss and engage sexually

That's a turn on for the male species

For me and my partner

That's a death sentence

For this world we live in

Characterized being gay as a sin

I can't be comfortable in my own skin

Cause it displeases others

Am I happy? I'm not

Discriminated and for what

Because I prefer to like the same sex

Because I'm not attracted to the opposite sex

And yet ,I'm to hide

Because if I don't I can be attacked maybe killed

All because I choose to live my life how I see fit

It then hurts my heart when they say black lives matter

Yet I'm black and the hate crimes towards black gays are just as worst

Black lives matter

And I lost my friend to a hate crime cause his "gay stench" was affecting the worlds balance

For he was 21 and I 23 and he lost his life for being himself .

Come to think of it the police did nothing

Change that to does nothing

The amount of hate crimes on a daily basis

And for what

For some say "we deserve it"

What did we do to deserve being beaten for our lifestyle?

What did my friend did to be beaten to death because his gay was to much for this world ?

And I'm to be happy for all this misandry?

I can't be happy at all in this world

Work is sad and depressing

How am I to like my job when My boss is an misandrist  

He degrades me every chance he gets

And gets away with it

And they do nothing

Work is hard to find being gay

Some people don't even hire cause they judge me by my lifestyle

Always reminding me of how low and heartless the human race is

For a black gay can't be seen in an area where through traffic is an everyday thing

Nor can be the face of an work environment.

Even with family

The closest and the only people you think you can trust

And the convo starts as "I'm gay"

And it ends with "you can't be here"

"My gayness" was too much for them

For they disowned me

For I had no parents or a home to return to

I was a disappointment

I was "dead to them"

As it was embarrassing to have a gay black son in the world we live in

It isn't easy

Being cast out like an old rag and left to fend for yourself

To the point suicide feels like the one way ticket to heaven

But even then would god let me in if I knocked hard enough?

For he written Adam was meant for eve!

But here I am a black Adam in love with Steve

Having to lower my voice to avoid sounding feminine

To changing my wardrobe to adapt to this day and age

Gay man ,queer,lesbian,bi,transgender

If life was different ,gender based equality would mean something

For the people who don't like us

And that isn't fair

Long story short

We all get some sort of exclusion from careers and relationships

We change and adapt so we can blend in seamlessly into the public's jeering eyes

Hopefully it gets better for us

Hopefully we don't have to run back to the closet to hide after we came out

Gay is my lifestyle

And I embrace it, I feel comfortable

Nothing should change or bring you down

Because they don't like you as you are

Always remember

Compassion has no religion,character has no race and love has no gender

Being gay doesn't give anyone the right to judge or hate

I'm the froot loops in this world of fucked up Cheerios

And the milk of it

Is my pride ..