Feeling like a motherless child roaming the dark Rainy streets looking for somewhere to go.
Where am I?
I see pure darkness all around, I look and turn and that's all I see
And I ask myself where do I go from here?
I'm always so hard on myself why?
Why am I stoic to change?
Why do I fear change?
I feel closed in and I can't find a way out
Why can't I find my way out?
Why are my feet sticking to the ground when my body wants to move forward?
Why am I keeping myself from moving forward?
Fear of change I assume, fear of sacrifice.
The fear of having fear.
I feel the darkness of the walls closing me in
My body is rigid and I want to move-my feet won't allow me
You stay here. You stay with what you know
But how do I get that light at the end of my tunnel?
This darkness is too much. Depressing.
I'm anxious
My mind in constant state of retrograde A slow motion of 22 years flashing everyday in my head.
What I have done
What I have been through
I want more
I need more
Why am I in a constant state of competition with my own self?
I'm in a tug of war with the old and new me.
What do you want more of?
I need this darkness to fog away and bring the light I need in myself
Everything starts on the inside
The burden I carry everyday. The heavy load of physical, mental and emotional drainage I give myself.
Hence, I. Give. Myself
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PoetryI've got a lot on my mind and I'm ready for you to hear. Here are my thoughts.
