JJ Maybank imagines

I'm not worth it

Requested :) @sofiamariafifia
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Sofia and JJ, no one would've expected them to get together. Sofia is a bookworm and shy, she knows who she is but doesn't always have the confidence to do so. Meanwhile JJ, popular and outgoing, all the girls want him but the only girl he sees is his girlfriend Sofia.

Sofia's POV
Today I was meeting up with JJ at the beach, I was in charge of snacks so I decided to run to the gas station and grab some stuff. I packed my little backpack, threw on my black sweatshirt (cause I always get cold at the beach), light wash denim shorts, and sandals and headed out.

The walk to the gas station took about 15 minutes, unfortunately for me that meant it was time to think.

Lately I've been a lot more insecure, ranging from my looks, my body, my actions, am I good enough to be with JJ when he can have anyone else whenever he wants

I made it to the store and went in, grabbing some chips, popcorn, a few candy bars, water for me and red bull for JJ

I walk up to the register and payed for it, I saw a group of girls walk in behind me. Your basic bitch I like to call them, they always wear booty shorts and crop tops, and usually either white vans or some other expensive shoe.

I always get insecure when I'm around them, they're probably talking about me, maybe I'm too fat, or too skinny, do I look weak? Do I have something in my hair? Do I look poor?

I started to get emotional so as soon as the cashier gave me back the food, I bolted out of there

I was able to contain myself and continued to the beach, only wanting to be in JJ's arms at that very moment

I made it to the beach, I didn't see JJ anywhere. I do see a group of girls surrounding a poor guy

I walk closer, getting a bad feeling it could be JJ

"JJ?" I say with a slight crack in my voice

He turns his head around to look at me "oh there you are" he says with a smile trying to get away from the girls around him

My confidence was at an all time low, I start to back away as JJ walked towards me

"Sof?" He says concern filling his voice

"Just. I'm gonna go home" I say trying my hardest not to cry, speed walking away

"Sofia wait!" I hear JJ yell

I felt a hand wrap around my arm and pull me back

"Sofia stop, what are you doing?" He asks

"I'm just gonna leave you with your girlfriends over there. Don't mind me" I say, tears turn to anger

"What are you talking about?"

"I just thought you'd like to spend time getting smothered by all those girls over there" I say pointing behind him

"Are you kidding me, why do you always do this, you always think I'm cheating on you, you never trust me, you still don't understand that you're the only one I love" he says starting to raise his voice

"Well it's not that hard to think when you let those girls melt all over you"

"I can't control what they say or do to me, and I DO tell them to get off me because I have a girlfriend who I'd never want to lose" JJ says softening the last words

"You sure do do a great job letting them know" I say walking away. Only to feel hands on my waist and before I knew it JJ threw me over his shoulder

"JJ you asshole put me down!" I yell upside down into his back

No response

"JJ stop!"

"Nope, we're going to my house and to work this out, and no amount of kicking and hitting will stop me" he says with a stern tone

"Goddammit" I say giving up

His house was right on the beach luckily so I wasn't upside down for long

We get to his house and he opens the door, still not letting me down

"Hey dick head you can put me down now" I say with an annoyed tone

Again, no response

He opens his bedroom door and throws me into his bed and sits next to me

"Ok, we need to talk, I need you to explain why you always get jealous and mad when you see girls around me" JJ says with a soft voice

I take a long sigh "it just scares me. That you could leave me so easily to be with one of them. They're all so much prettier, and have a better body, and have money to have nice things, when I don't have any of that. I'm not worth it" I say, tears threatening to pour out

"Sofia, I could never do that to you. I see those girls and see what they don't have on you. They don't have a heart like you, they could throw a plastic bag in the ocean and not think twice about it but you will single handed jump into the ocean to clean someone else's mess because you don't want to turtles to suffer. You will give your last penny just so you can give a homeless guy food. You are the most selfless person I know, and that's why I love you. You're beautiful inside and out" JJ says pulling me into a hug

"I don't know what to say" I say, crying into JJ's shoulder

"Just say you love me"

"I love you JJ" I say

"I love you too"