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TwentyOne- Sirius

TIME SKIP TO AFTER REMUS' FIRST MISSION WITH THE ORDER

Two months, Remus has been gone for two months

he was given a mission for the order in our first meeting, I was too but i got back last month.

For what seems like the millionth day in a row, i wait around the house anxiously for Remus' return, i gave up on the idea of moving out because it soon lost its title of being a priority as the prospect of war became clearer.

suddenly there's a crack, making me jump only to see that its Remus and i let out a breath i didn't know i was hiding

"where have you been?" i ask, Remus looks over at me "hello to you too" replies Remus sarcastically "I said, WHERE have you been?" i ask more sternly this time "Sirius, you know I can't tell you that" replies Remus "you also couldn't tell me whether or not you were alive, it's bad enough not knowing how James and Lily are all the time I was worried sick about you!" i exclaim

"Sirius, i know" says Remus but before he can finish i walk over and cup his face in my hands "you're hurt" i say in an almost whisper "it's nothing" he says brushing me off "look, i've just got back can we talk later?" asks Remus, i see the cuts and bruises and the paleness to his face. where had he been?

"let me clear you up" i state, he shakes his head "Sirius please" begs Remus, i frown at him "Remus what can i do? i finished my mission a month ago which left me a month to sit and worry about you because for all i knew you could've been dead and that haunted me, you probably didn't have time or maybe it didn't cross your mind but you sent no sign that you were alive whatsoever and it worried me so the least you could let me do is help with your wounds" i state in a parental like tone that i've never had to use before

"why do you care so much?" asks Remus, is he dumb? is he confunded? "BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!" i exclaim without fully registering what i was admitting to, Remus stands taken aback for a moment until he walks over to me again and slams his lips on mine "i thought i'd never hear those words leave your lips for me again" said Remus as we finally pulled apart

"Remus, those words have been wanting to fall from my lips ever since the wedding" i state, brushing my thumb over his cheek "i'm sorry" he states, a tear falling from his eye that i wipe away "don't be, don't apologize. What matters is that you're here and alive, just let me tend to your wounds" i say softly, staring into his eyes, the eyes i love so much, he gives in to me and nods, taking a seat on the couch.

i put water in a bowl and find a cloth to clean the wounds. I pull up a stool and sit in front of him, dabbing the soft wet cloth to his wounds, at first he winces but soon adjusts to the touch

"Sirius, you know i can't tell you where i went, strict orders from Dumbledore, i would tell you if i could but i can't" begins Remus, i feel he has more to say so i listen in silence and let him finish as i continue to tend to his wounds

"the truth is, i wanted to tell you, to send an owl, tell you i'm alive, that i was thinking of you, that i should tell you i love you because i couldn't bare the thought of taking that to the grave with me but every time i went to write a letter i didn't know what to say it was like all those years we spent as best friends had vanished and i'd only met you yesterday. I then thought that perhaps you didn't care as much as i thought you did and i gave up with the letter. i should've tried harder. I'm just glad i made it out alive and managed to get back to tell you that i love you, i will always love you, i have never stopped loving you, Sirius Black" continues Remus

I kiss him at those words and stare into his beautiful eyes yet again "i love you too, i have always loved you, i will always love you, i will never stop loving you Remus John Lupin" i reply, he smiles and runs his fingers through my black curls

then there's a knock at the door, I open it to find Albus Dumbledore, a grave expression on his face "Dumbledore" i say "I haven't got long, Sirius, I'll need to be at Privet Drive soon" begins Albus. Privet Drive? Why? "I'm afraid that the worst has happened, the thing we have feared most, Voldemort found them, Sirius, he found Lily and James. Unfortunately, I regret to inform you that they did not survive" continues Dumbledore. At these words my heart drops and a pit forms in my stomach and nothing matters anymote

"a-and Harry? D-did he k-kill Harry?" I manage to croak "no, surprisingly, he did not, we are still unsure of why but Sirius, why were you not there at their house?" asks Dumbledore, i frown "i-i'm not the secret keeper" i reply

"then- oh. i always assumed it was you and since Remus is here too that means it was Peter...they're in Godric's Hollow, the house opposite the church, Hagrid will be there soon to collect Harry, there may still be time for you to see him. I must go. I'm terribly sorry" says Dumbledore, and with a crack he's gone.

Dead

James, my best friend, a brother to me. Dead. Lily, his wife, who became like a sister to me. Dead.

I sink to my knees, i let out a cry with a mixture of grief, agony and pure sadness. I need to see Harry.

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