S i m i l a r? [Ayato Kirishima X reader]

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"...Hey, stop crying fucker your face is gonna turn all red."

(Y/N) instantly wiped the tears from her face and stepped back to process what was happening. She looked up. Longish dark blue hair and those dark alluring eyes set on a chiseled yet somewhat babyish face. He was lean, yet muscular, and his posture was horrible as it always was. He was taller now, and with his height grew his maturity. The nasty scowl that was always set on his face was now wiped away, yet traces of them still appeared on his somewhat calm look. (Y/N) gasped for breath as she took another look at him.

Him.

Ayato.

After all these years he's here.

In front of me.

(Y/N) took another step back. How was she supposed to react? What was she supposed to say? Bad memories of him flooded her mind as more tears fell from her face.

I have to pull myself together.

As the frail girl wiped tears from her face once again she stood up straight, took a deep breath, and slowly made her way to the door, trying to think of what to say. Ayato shifted his position while (Y/N) attempted to form words. 

"Are you gonna let me in or not?" 

(Y/N)'s eyebrows furrowed at this and words were finally starting to take shape.

"Why are you here? How did you find me? Did you even think to explain or apologize for what happened that night? I loved him and you ruined it! And now you have the fucking nerve to appear out of nowhere months later and for what? Why wou-"

"Look. I know you have a lot of questions."

"Why are you acting so calm? I put my trust in you and you ruined my lif-"

"(Y/N)." Ayato let out a breath while slowly making his way to the other side of the door frame, and slowly shut Touka's front door. 

(Y/N) turned and walked to the couch. She sat and buried her face in her palms. Ayato slowly followed and sat by her at a safe distance. (Y/N) began to hyperventilate as tears fought their way out of her eyes. She grabbed her sides to support her. Ayato began to panic and tried to comfort her the best he could so he could actually discuss things with her. 

(Y/N) only pushed him away. 

She feared she would return to her old habits of crying in his arms. She wasn't ready to love again. She didn't know if she could even forgive him. She swallowed in her fear, wiped her tears, and pulled herself together once again.

"Why are you here?" Ayato could barely hear her and her hushed tone of voice. 

"I came here to talk. About everything." (Y/N) sighed. 

"Okay. Talk about that night. The night you attacked me and Urie."

Ayato took a breath. His eyes narrowed and he looked to the floor.

"I was in a bad mood. That day my head was filled with thoughts of you. Filled with thoughts of regret. Sadness. Anger. I didn't know what to do except to get satisfaction. I saw the opportunity when I saw you two. Seeing you two happy made me mad so I snapped. I'm sorry. I know I'm a fucking dumbass and I know I was being fucking selfish."

(Y/N) leaned back on the couch and took another breath. She was surprised to see that she wasn't bursting with rage. She supposed it was because there was nothing she could do about it anymore. 

"Why are you back here? Why did you still think of me after I left? It was you who said that you loved Hinami more than me."

"With you gone I realized that wasn't true."

Ayato had a somber look in his eyes. (Y/N) didn't know what to think. He's changed. (Y/N) curled into a ball and sank into the couch. 

"(Y/N). I still love you."

Before she could even think of a response, the lock of the front door turned and Touka walked in shortly after.

"Oh. I see you're both here." Touka had a worried smile on her face. "Are you okay (Y/N)?"

"..yeah."

(Y/N) wasn't surprised by her reaction. After all, the only way Ayato would've found her was through Touka.

Is this it?

Has everything been fixed?

(Y/N) was still unsure of herself. 

She shut her eyes tight and thought of her brother.

What am I supposed to do now?

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A/N

HI 4 AM GANG

apparently I've been working on this chapter for 3 hours wtfrick

idk how to end the book and idk how soon I wanna end it but we'll see-

okay gn