So afraid to get too close
I flee again and again
Past a point of intimacy
That there is no coming back from
You asked how much I wanted you?
Oh hell, I thought.
Too much.
I want you
And it scares me
Because wanting can lead to needing.
I fear needing someone again
Who won't be there
A repeated history of mine
I want you
I want you
Fuck, I want you and I couldn't say it
Despite my showing it
Rolling skin into skin and touching you
So freely
Caressing, winding my wanting tighter
with every touch
It irritates me
That I want
Irritates and scares me
Few things have left me this way
Because there's a gap, a spark
Potential
Of more
