A New Spring

A Brand New Day

The sun rising up over the horizon. Surreal gold touching the clouds around. The morning breeze blows over, waving the ongrowing maple. Dawn, what a great way to start a day. But then. Brrzt. Brrzt. Brrzt, followed with "Sweet Caroline," an old popular song, that I still love to this day, chimes out. With a loud groan, I awaken. "Ugh... My head is throbbing. H-how much did I drink last night?" I ask myself as I sit upright and hold my head. I then look at my phone and turn off the alarm. I see a text.

Good morning Eliza. I have advil and water

set up on your desk. Kyo also is hopefully

making breakfast for you like I asked.

Also even though I hate it when you do

it, you have your cigarettes right next to

your water. Don't go too heavy. And when

you get home, I'll be waiting, and we are

going to have a talk. I love you dearly.

Danny

I slap my forehead at my own stupidity. "My god... Why am I a fuck up?" I ask myself, feeling like absolute shit. I get up and get ready for the day. I smell the breakfast. No shit, she's actually making breakfast. Is it because she saw me incredibly drunk? I was confused. When done getting dressed I head down. My head in pain, but slowly numbing itself. I get to the advil, water, and a newly open pack of Marlboro Reds. Kaitlyn, or Kyo as she goes by, comes to me. "Are you okay?" She asks me incredibly worriedly.

"I'm fine. Just in head pain" I say. She hugs me. I hug back to prove I was alright. We let go and I go for the pain killers. I take a couple and down the water. I go to a drawer and pull out a lighter. But before I was stopped. Kyo handed me a plate of breakfast that smelled amazing. I take it and sit. I eat it all up. I sensed the worry predominating off of her. "Kyo, you know I'm fine. Just got a little out of control. I'm fine" I reassure her. She nods, finally agreeing with me and calming down. "Good" I say. I take my pack of cigarettes and step outside. "I'll be right back. Once I'm done I'll take you to school" I say. I had already graduated. I was ahead of my grade by a lot. And so, upon turning seventeen, I graduated, along with my boyfriend Daniel, or Danny some call him. I step into the new morning cold. It chilled my skin but it was worth it. I open the pack and take out a fresh cigarette. I place the brown filter in my mouth and light it up. I take that first drag and feel the smoke slide down my throat. I release it. My head gets light. I was feeling better.

About five minutes passed and I was done. I head back in. Kyo tosses me my keys and I catch them. "Are you ready to go?" I ask.

"Yeah. Let's go Lizzy" She says. We gather our stuff. I had gotten a work uniform in a bag. We enter my car. And old 08 ford focus. I start the car. It runs for a bit and warms up. Kyo goes in. I then drive off to Springlake High. She was a sophomore here. And already somewhat scary towards the other years. We pull up.

It was filled with awkward silence. I decide to break it. "I'll have Danny pick you up okay? I have a long shift today" I say to her. She bobs her head in agreement. "Alright good" I added. 

"Alright" She says and grabs her stuff and goes out. I then drive off to an amazing cafe that I work at. I help in baking the treats, making the coffee, cleaning, and being a cashier. I was so close to becoming a manager, if only I was eighteen. I have wanted to join college. But really, I can't. I need to watch my sister. After I graduated I immediately moved out and Kyo didn't have anywhere else to turn, so I am letting her live with me. She's good, I just wish she cleaned her room more.

Thirty minutes pass and I make it to my work. I grab my bag and go in. I was early for my shift, so I got ready. I went into the bathroom and went into an empty stall. I close it and begin to strip. I slip into my cafe uniform. I put my hair up. And by the time I got out I got to start my shift.

It was going well for the first five hours. But soon, one of our regulars, who actually is incredibly entitled, walks in. I was working up front and end up making eye contact with her. "Ah, hello Mrs. Smitty. What can I do for you today?" I greet very politely. I can tell she was internally hating me by the look she was giving. I thought I'd die. 

"Well, I'll have a large caramel americano, with cream, and whipped. Along with a large order of beignets." She demands. Like usual.

"Alright, we will get those beignets started for you, it'll take a little bit for them to cook" I say, ringing up the order. "That'll be fourteen eighty-five" I say. She rolls her eyes and hands me a twenty. I smile and put it in the register and hand her the change. I start making her coffee. She taps her foot impatiently. I hand her the coffee once done. It was visually appetizing, if I do say so myself. She grabs it angrily. "Your beignets will be done here soon. About another minute or so" I say

"Make them cook faster," She says. "I have work soon" She really didn't. She just wanted to rush our workers.

"I'm sorry, but I'm pretty sure you don't want raw pastry dough" I say. I was handed a large paper bag with her beignets. "Alright enjoy, and have a good day" She leaves angrily after taking her bag. I continue with work. Seven more hours pass. My shift was finally over. I was tired and sore. I got in my car and drove home. I remembered what Danny said in the morning. So I pull out a cigarette and smoke on the way home. 

My head was rushing with thought. So many unwanted thoughts. Feeling I have pushed down for far too many years that I have no time to express anymore. I put on a mask, metaphorically of course. Just to make sure nobody worries any more then they had to. But these thoughts consumed me. It got harder to breathe. I stop at a near by gas station and burst out into a pure panic attack. I couldn't stop it, I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was suffocating. I begin to taste salt, it struck me that the tears were coming down. It was years since I have cried. And I'm talking years. I flick my cigarette out, and hold myself. Everything hurt. My chest was screaming, my throat was burning, my head was rushing. I wanted this to end. I hyperventilated. I hear Danny's voice in the back of my head *breath.