Tears started running down on my cheeks. "Zack..." I whispered. I checked his heart beat. None. I started yelling and screaming for him, thinking he'd wake up soon. "Zack! ZACK!" People walking by started glancing at me. But I ignored it. Zack was gone. But why? Why now? Then I realized it. He knew this was going to happen.
It's been a week since Zack's death. After what happened, right away the news spread fast throughout the entire campus. Lots of people were suddenly affected by it. Wherever I walked by, people's pity face were staring right at me. But I tried to look strong. "Just ignore them," Kayla had told me. I was so glad Kayla was with me all the time. I don't think I would ever survive without her. Ugh...I don't wanna go to school anymore.
It was Saturday morning when I felt Kayla shake me lightly. "Kristine..." she whispered.
"Wh-what time is it?" I asked groggily.
"7," I looked at the clock next to me. "I made breakfast, and you might wanna get dressed by now."
Oh crap. It's Zack's funeral today.
I nodded slowly at Kayla and she gave me a sincere smile. After she left, I got dressed. I went downstairs and took a piece of bacon from the table. "You're not gonna sit down and eat?" Kayla asked. I shook my head. "I'm sorry," Kayla hugged me.
"Don't be." Seriously, why do people keep saying sorry when it's not their fault.
Kayla looked me in the eyes like she read my mind. "I know this is hard for you, but-"
I couldn't help it anymore. I broke down on her shoulders. "Shh..." Kayla was trying to calm me down. "You still wanna go?"
"Of-c-course-se," I said in between sniffles. I admit, I didn't want to go at all. I don't think I could handle it. But it'd be the last time I would ever see him.
The drive to the funeral felt so long. The closer we're getting, the slower the time felt. The weather didn't help either because it rained the whole morning.
There was a canopy set up in the middle of the cemetery, and in no time it was packed. I recognized Zack's parents in the front, especially her mom who was constantly sobbing. I recognized a few people from our school too. I spotted Ally across from us. Then his band mates. Kayla and I stood near them.
The ceremony felt like it was going on forever. I couldn't even focus on what the priest was saying. Next time I know, they told us to say our goodbyes. Zack's parents were first. I watched the agony as they say their last goodbye to their only son. Then his bandmates went. And then, it was my turn. I went up to his casket and saw his peaceful face lying in it. I wish I could see his green eyes once more. There were a lot of things I wanted to say. But all that came out was "bye Zack..." before storming out. I ran across the grassy the field under the pouring rain until I was out of sight. I stopped and let the tears fall. Then, I heard someone running behind me.
"Kristine!" I heard a familiar voice called. I turned and saw myself face-to-face with Ally. "Kristine.." she said softly.
I was confused. What was she doing running after me? "Uhhh..."
"Okay, I know this is really awkward but... I don't want you to be alone right now."
"I'm okay. Just go back in there and tell them I'm fine."
"No you're not," she tried to grab my wrist but I pulled away. "Look, Kristine. I'm sorry," she sighed. "For what happened. For what I did."
"Ally it's fine-"
"No it's not! Listen," her voice got quieter, "I know you liked Zack." Where was she going with this? "And he liked you too."
"We'll he's gone now so-"
