One Sided Love??? ~ SidNaaz FF (COMPLETED)

Part 21- Loving you hurts..

Sana yawned and glanced at the time.. it was getting late now.. She was still in discussion with Kaushal about what she wanted to say about this matter.. She just prayed her statement would calm things down.. She made a silent prayer for their future..
Just then Sidharth walked inside the sitting room..
"Kaushal.. mein kal phone karungi.." Sana bid bye to her manager and cut the call..
Sidharth came and stood infront of her staring down at her in frustration.. "Shehnaaz ye naatak band karo aur aake so jao.. "
"Pehle normal tone mein baat karo tum.." Sana replied tiredly..
"Normal tone mein hi baat kar raha hoon... Chilla ke nahi.." He replied patiently.. "Tum iss waqt Kaushal se kya discuss kar rahi thi?" He inquired..
Sana hesitated... "Mein bas.. iss matter par statement dene ke liye.."
"Kyun???" He interrupted her in anger.. "Kyun bolni hai iss baare mein?? Har baar tujhe kyun meri matter mein gusna hai..?"
" Tumhari matter??? " Sana stood up equally angry now.."mein bhi involved hoon isme.. meri friend ne aaj fake statement diya.. mein relationship mein hoon tere saath.. aur tum keh rahe ho mei guss rahi hoon teri matter mein.."
Sidharth went quiet instantly.. not only he was frustrated but confused with his emotions.. He wanted to speak but couldnt voice them out.. He just shook his head and walked back inside the room..
Sana followed him inside.. as he set on the bed Sana took her pillow and blanket from the bed..
"Shehnaaz please band karo ye sab.. aur ladai nahi karna mujhe.."
Sana glared at him.."Wahi toh.. mujhe bhi aur ladai nahi karni.. thakh gayi hoon.. isiliye iss kamre se jaa rahi hoon.." with that she left the room..

Sana laid on the bed in guest room.. it felt strange to be in a new room.. more than that she was missing him.. missing laying beside him.. missing his touch..
She closed her eyes willing to sleep.. it was difficult.. her heart hurt whenever he fought with her.. what wrong did they do to face all these problems.. why did it feel the whole world was against them..
She opened her eyes as she felt his presence nearby.. she got startled as she saw him sitting infront of her bed staring at her.. a look of torture was on his face..
She set up and got down sitting infront of him..
He ran a hand through his hair.. "Tujhse ladai bhi karna hai.. lekin tujhe dhuki bhi nahi dhekna hai.. mujhe khud nahi bata mujhe kya chahiye.. "
Sana bit her lip as she tried not to start crying seeing his vulnerable state..
"Tujhe pata hai.." he spoke quietly.. "Agar tu nahi hoti na meri life mein.. toh koi aise headline bana bhi leta hai toh mujhe koi farak nahi padta.. jabse tu meri life mein hai mujhe apni fikar se zyada teri tension rehthi hai.."
Sana smiled bitterly.. "ek baat bolun.. mujhe bhi yehi feeling hoti hai.. tere liye hi soch thi rehthi hoon.. ke tu hurt na hojaye.. koi tere baare mein bura na bolde.." she went silent not knowing whatelse to say..
Truth was they both were mirroring same feelings.. and both were finding it difficult to handle..
"Khabhi itna kisi ke liye socha hi nahi.. ye sab handle hi nahi karpa raha hoon ab.. nahi chahiye mujhe ye sab tension.."
Sana felt tears form in her eyes seeing his eyes get misty.. "Toh kya karein Sidharth... break up karle?" her heart thudded heavily as she knew what he would say..
"Please Shehnaaz tum chali jao.. Iss ghar se.. breakup.. mujhe nahi pata.. par abhi ke liye yehi sahi hoga hum dono ke liye " he spoke in difficulty.. it was as if he was forcing himself to say out words..
Shehnaaz did nothing out of reaction.. instead her tears spilled nonstop as she nodded in agreement.. "Mujhe bhi yehi lagta hai.. mujhe yahan se jaana chahiye.. tujhe waise bhi mujhpe koi trust nahi hai.."
"Aisa nahi hai Shehnaaz.. " he interrupted denying her words..
"Aisa hi hai Sidharth.. agar mujhe koi problem hoti hai toh tujhe batana hai.. lekin agar teri koi problem hai toh mera koi lena dena nahi hai uss matter pe.. toh saath rehne ke kya faydha hai.. tujhe apni problems share nahi karna mujhse.. lekin agar mein nahi karun toh tujhe problem hai.. wahh Sidharth" Sana clapped sarcastically..
Sidharth had a look of denial on his face.. he wanted to disagree but he didint utter a word..
Sana shook her head dissapointed.. "Theek kahan tumne.. yehi sahi hoga humare liye.. kya pata ye sirf 1 ya 2 din ke liye ho.. ya zindagi bar ke liye.. lekin mujhe ek baat pata hai.. jitna hum ek dusre se pyaar karte haina.. usse zyada ab hurt hote hein.."
He dragged a breath painfully as he dropped his head..
"Ab bohot hua Sidharth.. please mujhse baat mat karna tum.. nahi tu mujhe phone karegi nahi mein tujhe.. "
Sana informed in a teary voice as she brushed off her tears in anger and frustration..
She made way to his room and packed her clothes.. he came and stood near the door as she was busy packing..
His heart breaking with every step she took towards leaving him..
Sana grabbed her suitcase and walked infront of him..
She cried more as she saw the same pain reflect in his eyes..
"Sidharth.. mein...chali jaun??" She asked crying...
A lone tear rolled down his eyes as he stared at her suitcase.. "Jao Shehnaaz.."
"Theek hai.." she whispered as she brushed pass him to leave..
Sana stood near the door and looked back at him once.. maybe or maybe not it would be their last moment..
"Please mujhe contact mat karna tum.."
He just stared at her and whispered.. "Theek hai... Theek hai.." his voice grew more silent as he whispered third time.."Theek hai.."

Precap:

Story from Sidharth POV- Not being with her hurts more

When profession requires you to forget personal issues:

Kaushal: Guys please we cant say no to this.. ye tum dono ka pehla joint project hai.. Darshan raval ka song.. it will be huge.. fans are dying to see you
Sidharth: Theek hai..
Kaushal: Theek hai Shehnaaz?? Agree??
Shehnaaz: Haan.. theek hai..

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