Random book cuz I'm bored

Trigger warning

So this is something that I feel like I'm not supposed to keep from the ones I care about who I don't even know. As you all know I'd give everything just to save just one of my followers and I just love everyone who shows me support and love, and there is a lot I keep from you all.

As you know I have 6 or 7 books about depression and suicide, and basically it's just how I release since I'm too much of a pussy to talk and accept an overwhelming amount of support or hate, and have a lot of risk I'd be taking if I open my mouth, but this is something I actually think you guys deserve to know.

I have attempted suicide, not once, but twice.

The second one was just yesterday and the only harm really just was regular self harm because someone walked in on me trying to get to a bottle of pills, I made up a rather clever lie which they took,

And the first one, I am sorry but I'm not too comfortable talking about that one.

But before you guys start attacking me with all kinds of words I just have to say

I'm sorry, I am being a stupid bitch and really you guys are just as helpless as I am when it comes to helping me.

I know this probably seems like something that would need to be kept to myself but I can't handle the pain in my chest when something that big is just kept.

But again, I'm sorry, some of y'all noticed how I have changed and I wished I just stayed the same like 2019 YAH_YEETboi