Always you (sequel to love is love)

3: Coming back?

14/8/19

Today was the day I get to take my baby home, I now live in London close to Lottie.

I was packing up all my things and Romeos like diapers and so on.

I had changed him into his going home outfit earlier which was the cutest thing ever.

Lottie was coming to the hospital to help me and she's coming back to mine for a bit.

Romeo was sleeping so I picked up my phone while waiting on Lottie and took a picture of him which was the cutest

I saw I had a few messages of people who I had informed congratulating me

Sophie: omg congrats, can't wait to meet him, we all send our love x

R: thank you soph, love you all x

Perrie: I'll be over as soon as possible, got any pics? What's his name? I'm so excited ahhh

R: I miss you Pez :( yeah here's a pic, his name is Romeo and we love you

I sent her the picture I just took and smiled as I continued replying to all my messages

I put my Instagram on private to make sure Louis doesn't see as he doesn't follow me any more

I made a new Instagram a while ago with just my friends and people I know but still post on the other one for fans

I put up the picture on my private one and captioned it:
Welcome to the world little Romeo. I love you with all my heart💙

He really is beautiful, I can't believe he's mine.

Soon Lottie came and we left going back to my house and got some food.

Ro was still sleeping, he sleeps a lot which I suppose is good but I always miss him when he's asleep

I lay him in his hammock I had set up in my living room for him.

"I'm so proud of you you know, after everything that you have been through" Lottie said as we sat and I sighed

"I gotta get through it, I have to count myself lucky to be honest" I said and she nodded

"You are amazing though, I promise I'll be here as much as I can but Reags I don't know how your gonna hide this from Lou for so long" Lottie said and I nodded

"I know, but them I'm also like I can't just phone him up randomly and be like I have your baby, especially when he has a girlfriend" I said my heart breaking slightly

"I know, I can't imagine how hard this must be for you, but I promise you he loved you Reags, I've never seen him like that before, I don't get how he can be back with Eleanor" Lottie said

"I don't I just feel like, we only went out for a few months and he ended it for 'us' but it's done me nothing good, all I want is for Ro to have a dad, this isn't fair on him" I said and wiped a small tear

"I know baby, but you will be the best mum ever, you have me and the girls always and even if Louis doesn't be Romeos dad, we will always be family" Lottie said and I nodded

"I just like need to thank you for being so nice to me honestly, we have become so close since everything and I can't thank you girls enough for everything you have done for me" I said and she smiled and shook her head

"Don't be silly, of course we're gonna be here for you, your our best friend now and you and Ro are our family always" Lottie said and I smiled

"I love you" I said and hugged her

"And I love you both" Lottie said and hugged me back

"Reags there's something I need to tell you" Lottie said and I frowned getting scared

"What?" I asked and she smiled comfortingly

"Louis is coming back to London next week and he's on about staying for a bit" Lottie said and my heart stopped

"What Lottie what if I bump into him" I said panicking

"That's why I needed to tell you, if you bump into him Reags he's gonna know! He asked me if I know where your staying and I said I don't know, he still doesn't know we still see you" Lottie said

"Would he be mad if he knew" I asked and she nodded slightly

"Most likely, you know what Louis like, even thought he broke up with you, if he can't see you, nobody can, and the fact me and the girls have never got on with Eleanor either but we're still close with you after you two break up" Lottie said and I groaned

"Yeah I suppose I get that, I'm sorry Lots I didn't mean to put you three in this situation" I said genuinely

Lottie frowned

"Reagan it's not your fault, me and the girls choose to see you and the baby, it would be the same if you never even fell pregnant because we love you. You were nice to us and treated Lou well and that's all we ever wanted, it's not your fault at all" Lottie said

"I just wish that this wasn't so complicated, I wouldn't change anything for the world because I got this beautiful boy out of it but I wish he didn't break my heart, I wish I could forget about Louis, but every time I look at Romeo my mind goes to Louis" I said and she nodded

"It's complicated and I wish he never hurt you either, I don't even know why he did I don't get it. But you have done nothing wrong and you need to remember that and stop blaming your self" Lottie said

We sat and spoke

The only thing I could think about is what Lottie told me, Louis is coming back to London

Louis will be back here next week in the same city as me and there is nothing I can do to escape it

I have to tread very carefully