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Jung Miyoung POV

I bolted down the stairs, past his living room, into his backyard. There was a door that led to the garage. Peering into the little window, I could see the car. I twisted the knob, but it was locked. In one swift move, I kicked it down

"Hyungwon!"

I slapped my palms against the window of the car. He was unconscious, his head lolled to the side onto his shoulder. His lips were pale, his eyes were sunken

He had left the engine running. My lungs constricted and I began coughing. I looked around the garage and picked up a baseball bat. I shattered the front window and unlocked the car. I dragged Hyungwon's limp body out from the driver's side and out of the garage

I coughed violently next to him in his backyard. I looked at him, his eyes closed, his chest rising weakly

"How the fuck could you do this to me, Chae Hyungwon?"

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It seemed that when it came to things like Hyungwon, repetition occurred frequently. Once again, I was spending the night next to him in his hospital room. There was an oxygen mask over his face. I fell asleep watching the rising and falling of his chest

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Unlike the first time, this time I awoke on my own. Hyungwon seemed to still be asleep. I seated myself next to his hospital bed on a chair. I took in his messy hair and eyelashes

How did I feel about him?

I supposed I never really considered it. All this time, I've always been convinced that I despised him. I mean, of course I did. He was Chae Hyungwon, he was my nemesis. Most of my school life had been devoted to hating him

Every often disregarded my emotions. When my mom didn't show up for my sixth grade valedictorian speech, I didn't even feel sad. Mild disappointment, but it wasn't even significant enough to affect me

Emotions hindered you. They blurred your sense of judgement and conscience. What was the point of something like that?

But I couldn't help but think back to that time we kissed, to how the rush of adrenaline that it elicited was so similar to when I argued with him. It was almost the same. My heartbeat accelerated, my cheeks grew flushed

I looked down at his sleeping features.

Maybe there was a fine line between love and hate

All of a sudden, he opened his eyes and they were staring right into mine. My heart raced involuntarily

He pulled off his mask and sat up, his dark hair bouncing

"Why'd you do it?" he asked

"Do what?"

"Keep me from dying"

I gaped at him

"B-Because I couldn't let you die knowing that I could've saved you, you dumbass!"

"Have you ever considered the fact that I decided to kill myself because I wanted to?"

"Sometimes what you want isn't always what's best for you princess"

Hyungwon snorted

"Don't talk as if you know what's best for me"

"Hyungwon, you can see a psychiatrist. You can lessen the severity of your nightmares. You have as much potential, you can lead such a fulfilled life"

"What's the point of a fulfilled life when you can't enjoy it?"

Hyungwon broke his gaze. He stared ahead instead of at me

"Nobody will dare come close tom me if they find out how fucked up I really am. What girl could handle such violent nightmares? Panic attacks, and who knows what else?"

"I can" I thought but I didn't say it out loud

"I'm sure somebody will love you despite all of that. I mean, you're Hyungwon. How could those weak-hearted women resist you?" I said instead

Hyungwon raked his fingers through his hair. Locks of it fell into his eyes

"You can" he said

I didn't answer

Hyungwon chuckled a little, and silence overtook the room

"They're probably going to make me see a psychiatrist"

"I know I said that you can see one, but you don't have to go if you don't want to, right?"

Hyungwon looked down at his hands

"Maybe I should"

He redirected his gaze onto me

"Maybe you're right"

I felt my lips curve into a smile. Finally, I felt like I had helped him.

"Yeah" I said "Maybe"

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