Oh no I love him.... (Yuri!!! On Ice)

Confession, Confessions

Authors note:
This an au where Victor never trained Yuuri, instead they met a few times and became close after Yuuri got over meeting his idol, whether Yuuri still skates or not is up to you.

Yuuri's POV

I was going to confess to Victor.

I had idolized him for years before we met but after we started hanging out my feelings grew and changed more and more until they turned into love.

I realized that I was in love with him months ago but I was scared that our relationship would change if I said something.

But now I can't hold it anymore.

I have to tell him, I can only hope he feels the same, even just a quarter of what I feel would be enough.

I made it to his apartment and I used the key he gave me to unlock the door, it happened a year ago when we realized I was spending a lot more time at his place then I was in mine, though it's been a while since I've came by because of these feelings that made it harder to be to close to him.

That's one of the reasons I decided to confess now, being to close hurt but being away hurt 10x more.

I slowly made my way to his room trying to build up the courage. A little part of me wanted to just leave as he hadn't noticed I was here but the larger part of me wouldn't let that happen.

I opened the door and what I saw instantly made my heart drop.

He was in bed naked with women next to him, she was sleeping and he looked like he woke only a few minutes ago when he saw me he shot up and hurriedly put some shorts on.

I couldn't take it.

My heart felt like it had sank to my feet, maybe that's why I stood there longer than I would've wanted to.

But I recovered before he finished putting on his shorts.

"Oh I am SO sorry-" I said barely finishing my sentence before slamming the door and running downstairs.
I made it to the door before he got fully downstairs, I was trying to open the door, my hands shaking.

"Yuuri! I'm sorry you had to see that, why are you here?" He asked.

" I ju- ahem  just had something I wanted to tell you but it's not important now, I'm sorry for um interrupting I'll go now. " I said and I couldn't even stop the crack in my voice or the slight tears that glistened waiting to fall before I ran out the door and down the street into an alleyway, between his complex and another building, and then broke down crying.

Victor's POV

Dammit!

Why did he have to see that!!

As Yuuri ran out the door I could tell something was wrong.

What did he want to tell me? It couldn't be what I hoped it was.
The whole reason I was with that woman was because I had spent the night before drinking trying to get rid of the crippling loneliness and heartbreak I had been stuck with since Yuuri had distanced himself.

She had approached me, probably recognizing me from tv and I knew better dammit but yet I still did something I should never have.

Now look what happened.

Yuuri was upset.

I didn't deserve him.

But none of that mattered now, I needed to find Yuuri!

I ran after him and saw him as he ran into the alleyway down the street and made chase stopping as I heard him start sobbing, I was shocked.
It felt like I couldn't move, did I cause this reaction!?