You make me better Jenlisa

Epilogue

Fourth grade

¨Jennie Kim say hello to Lalisa Manoban.¨Miss Kim whispered to me as we approached a girl in a light blue dress. I was nervous. She was so pretty. I never really saw anybody as pretty as her before. ¨She needed a friend and I thought you would be the perfect fit for the job.¨ Lalisa looked at me and smiled softly. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. Her presence put me in a daze. We stood there. Staring at each other and had nothing to say. ¨Hi lalisa¨ I finally managed to stutter out. ¨Hello Jennie Kim¨ She replied back behind a giggle. I took her hand and walked her over to where I was sitting and let her sit next to me. I told her that I was going to be her friend and protect her from the boys and cooties. I sat next to her at lunch and during class. And pushed her on the swings during recess. And protected her from the boys and cooties.For the rest of the year.

Fifth grade

We were at the playground and I was pushing Lalisa on the swings as usual.¨Jennie I have to tell you something.¨She shouted as she went up and came back down allowing me to push her back up again. I slowly stopped the swing from swinging and waited for her to speak. She stood up and faced me. She looked perfect as always. Her mother started letting her wear lip gloss which made her look older and more attractive. ¨What is it lalisa?¨I asked curiously. ¨Kaiyoung kissed me on my cheek today and asked me to be his girlfriend.¨She cheered happily. I felt my heart break. I didn't know why. She waited for me to say something but nothing could come to mind.All I could do was cover the pain with a smile. I couldn't protect her from the boys and the cooties anymore.

Sixth grade

Middle school came along and I would find myself listening to Lisa constantly talk about boys. Whether it was a celebrity or one of the boys from school. ¨Kyon bought me a necklace Jennie look¨Lisa gleamed as she flaunted the necklace resting against her neck. I wanted to rip it off but all I did was smile.¨Very nice lisa¨I lied. I was hurt that she felt better by boys than by me.After all wasn't I the one there for her when one of her boyfriends left her for somebody else.

Seventh grade

I found myself staring at Lisa whenever I could. She was getting to the point of being beyond beautiful.She grew into her looks and let her hair grow down to her chest which grew out of nowhere. I realized that she could have whoever she wanted and that she already had me the very first day I laid my eyes on her. I was in love with my best friend and that was the scariest thing that I ever knew about myself. But I hid it and I hid it very well. I met this boy at school who liked me. I didn't know why but I thought that this would be the perfect opportunity to cover my tracks of being in love with Lisa. To maybe feel how she felt when she told me about somebody she liked. Even if it was a lie.¨Lisa I like Min-Jun¨I told her one night over a sleepover at her house. She got angry and started shouting at me telling me how Min-Jun liked her and how he was going to be her boyfriend. But I didn't understand. Out of all of the boyfriends she had why was she getting mad at this one.It made me sad and angry at the same time so I left and we haven't spoken for the rest of that year.

Eighth grade

Lisa and I still hadn't spoken to each other. Our moms tried to get us to but I was just too hurt by her and she was paranoid that I was trying to steal Min-Jun who broke her heart later that year. It was her who made my heart happy and now that I didn't have that. I was nothing. I made some new friends. Jisoo Kim and Rosé. I told them everything about Lisa and how deeply inlove I was with her. They tried to make me forget about her but nothing worked. I wasn't anything without Lisa.

Ninth grade (Now)

¨Jisooooo stoppppppp¨I shouted out in between sobs throughout the halls chasing her for my phone. ¨Not until you stop crying over her.¨She shouted back. I stopped chasing her. It was no use. It wasn't like my feelings for Lisa would fade away if I got my phone back anyway.¨A loud scream filled the halls as people rushed over to see what it was. Oh shit. I run over to where jisoo was and see her lying on the floor with my newly cracked phone laying next to her. ¨Jisoo!¨ I panicked. I go over to her and lift her up and look at Lisa who had chocolate milk all over her shirt. ¨I-im sorry¨I stutter feeling all my blood rush to my face. Even with chocolate milk spilt all over her she still looked beautiful. Lisa's new boyfriend ran up to her and wrapped one of his arms around her waist. ¨Babe what is this?¨ He asked while everybody and him around us glared at me and jisoo. I look at them standing side by side. It didn't look right but as long as she was happy. I was happy for her.

¨Nothing Anthony¨Lisa muttered out loud as if she was scared that something might happen. Anthony squeezed her side and kissed her head. She flinched a little. What this fuck is this? I think to myself. Jisoo looked at me concerned at what we both just saw. The girl who was once happy and cheerful looked tense and unhappy. What happened to my best friend? I looked at her face and saw small bruises near her eye. ¨Anthony could you possibly get me towels f-for my shirt?¨She asked tensely. Anthony forcefully grabbed her face and kissed her and walked off to the bathroom.

I looked at her as relief washed over her face. It took her a second to look at me. ¨Hi lalisa.¨I greeted as if we were little kids meeting each other again. It was bittersweet. ¨Hello Jennie Kim¨ She replied.I felt tears well up in my eyes as butterflies began to flutter in my stomach again. She rushed up to me and forcefully pushed herself into me and wrapped her arms around my neck. I held her waist and wrapped my arms around her. ¨What happened to protecting me from the boys and cooties Jennie?¨She asked as she cried into my neck. I felt my heart break. I looked at jisoo who was carelessly taking pictures of us on my cracked phone that im going to have to explain to my mother later.But I didnt care. All I cared about was Lisa. My lisa.

¨I was too weak lisa.¨I replied weakly.