Eternal: A book of messages

Epoch

I want to tie the knot by telling you what I really think and feel.

First of all I would want to thank you for playing a major role in my life. I experienced and learned a lot of things from you. I met other people and being with you changed me as a person. I know the way we parted isn't ideal but looking back at it I couldn't think of a better way to end it. I wanted to end it the same time as you do, not to give up, but to give room for ourselves to improve.

Second, we're sorry— I'm sorry. Many things happened, most of them are the worst as they can be. I know that at one point we were friends, I loved you and gave you my all. I know that I inflicted wounds and scars that would take time to heal, others permanent. But I wish you the best and hope that the time will heal your wounds.

Third, I don't mean to shove it in your face that our situation is a lot better now. If you feel that way I apologize. I know that you are facing a lot of battles right now which is different from what we are experiencing. You lost too many people, others being close to you. You were hurt in more different ways than one. I know that for you it seems "unfair" for us to live peacefully while you "suffer". If that is what you feel and think, I apologize.

Fourth, I hope you'll also see the brighter side of these events. I hope you use it to grow as a person, as a woman. To be more mature and to make the right decisions. To take care of yourself more above everything else.

Fifth, I'm forgiving you from what the things that you did, I don't ask you to do the same, but please remember that it is not only I that made mistakes in our previous relationship, but both. Again, I know what I did wrong, I regret those things and I'm sorry once again.

Lastly, as you might've noticed, I kept asking for apology and sorry throughout this message. I'm letting you win now, I don't want to fight anymore as it will not resolve anything and will create even more problems. I'll just let you be.

I hope you won't be offended by any of these as my only intention is to use this as a closure. Please take this message positively and use it as a way to improve and to (hopefully) forgive.

I don't expect you to forgive though. At least improve for yourself.

~A final message to you.
4:08 AM [04/27/20]