I forgot that i am a Villainess

Chapter 23

i decided to visit Celestia

suddenly the sky begins to turn grey

lightning strikes

and i suddenly heard a melancholy
voice

It's Celestia!...

i felt my heart broke

i run and decided to find her

until i saw Kaizer crying and begging a woman with a black hair and eyes to not go

it is my first time to see Kaizer begging and crying

actually he changed from from the moment Celestia didn't attend the lectures

he become cold sharp and calculating

he become calm

but then now he looked like a begger begging a rich girl to give him a food and money

the woman is familiar

she is wearing a white silk gown

she is wet and all i can see in her eyes are nothing...

it's empty

like a puppet

without life

suddenly my heart stings so much

she is Celestia...

her beautiful hair that i always comb is already black

her beautiful and sparkling cyan eyes that i always love is dyed black

Kaizer tried to touch and stop Celestia from walking away but Kaizer touched nothing

until Celestia vanished into thin air

my body froze

my head is still processing all of the informations

processing the situation

what is going on?

i never knew i would regret not jumping to her ang beg to not leave

i felt like if she will be gone now

everything will crumble

my relationship to her

our memories

would turn in to ashes...

no... i don't want that to happen!

but my body didn't moved

still shocked..

I'm usless!

pathetic!

i can't even control my body!

my own body!

until months passed

years passed

i didn't realize that i will regret not moving my body to hug her

to apologize

to explain to her everything

i want to whisper her ears that

i like her...

no...

i love her...

everything is gone

she is gone

i felt my tears staining my cheeks

this is not true

this is not happening

why all of a sudden?!

why now?

why not just the other day atleast i would explain everything to her and apologize and say my true feelings

why now?

now that i am already out of Helena's charms?

now that my feelings for her surfaced

that feelings that i have been keeping so long

why ?!

i do deserve this!

because i hurt her!

i felt my world stop spinning

it's my fault

i am so stupid!

now i realized the true meaning of regret

i wished...

i wished to see her again and make up for her...i want to apologize and start again

and confess my feelings for her...

but it's too late..

she is gone...