Letters: Ethan Payne

simon

As he was about to drift away, he held the note he wrote tight in his hand.

"Hahah you know it" he heard the contagious laugh he'd missed for a while.

He slowly opens his eyes slowly, he sat up panicking looking for the notes he'd received and the notes he's written

"ETHAN MAN" Simon heard Harry shout from downstairs

He jumped out of bed running downstairs almost tripping on the way.

"HARRY, ETHAN"

he shouted

As the boys turned to him they realised something was wrong

"What's wrong Simon? are you okay? why are you crying?" Harry spoke with a worried tone

Simon hadn't even realised he had been crying till he reached his fingertips up to his drenched cheeks. The boy ran up to the two and hugged them. The rest of the sidemen staring in confusion.

"Please don't go Ethan please" Simon begged sobbing hard

Those words left Ethan in shock.. how did he know?

"I love you ethan, more than a friend" he sobbed harder

Ethan's eyes filled with tears as he spoke "I love you too Simon"

He smiles in relief

As Simon turned to Harry he knew what to expect.

"Harry we can help you. I don't know how I knew all of this. I dreamt about it.. Ethan killed himself and you went after him.. please stop taking MD" he cried harder into the boys shoulder

"H-how did you know" everyone stared in shock

"Is this true" Josh asked worried wondering what the truth was.

Ethan turned to him "yea, it's true. I know you don't mean the things you say to me but it hurts I hate myself I just knew you guys wouldn't believe me"

"What are you on about we were just clowning, I will always care Ethan, we will always care, we just wanted to give you time so you could come to us.. but I regret that decision now" JJ spoke quietly still in shock

"Harry? Are you actually taking drugs?" Tobi questioned

Shakily he answered "yeah I am, it's my only way out of reality" he broke down the whole group knowing the secret he's kept for months

"Are you disappointed?" He questioned.

"Of course not Harry, were a team, were all brothers and we all care for you, even if we don't show it sometimes we do" vik spoke in a shaky voice

"Will you help us?" Ethan asked in a low broken voice

" Without a doubt, that's what we're here for" Simon claimed still sobbing hard still hugging Ethan

They continued talking for a few hours to get out emotions and confess their secrets. Some shocking but it never changed anything between them. It only made them stronger.

Harry and Ethan got help and everyone is back to their old selves. They still make jokes but make it clear they don't mean it. Simon and Ethan are in a happy relationship together and all of them have become best friends and live a happy life together.
___________________________THE END

The moral of the story I'm trying to get through is, that it will get better. And I understand that things do get hard and something's will never go away. But if you talk to someone even if it's hard there will be people out there who truly care about you. If anyone struggles or needs to talk. Please feel free to message me..

Here's my Snapchat : ckadas-tar

Please if there is something you need to talk about come talk to me and I promise I will be here for you. I know this is get rough especially in times like these. But it's not worth fighting in your own.

Please everyone stay safe and stay home. I hope your all healthy and well❤️