Crazy Love (COMPLETED)

Chapter one: Dianne

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May contain sexual acts between girls. Rated SPG is advised.

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DIANNE

I keep on thrusting back and forth as I heard my partner's loud moan. She's a screamer, the more she screams, the faster I move on top of her. The strap on I'm using is already making a sound in every thrust I make. That's how wet she is.

I reached for her breast and squeezed it hard. She arched her body when I pinched her erected nipples.

"Aaah! Fuck me harder D! T-that's is. Oooh. . . A-almost t-there. . ." she's panting, don't know where to hold.

When I pulled out the strap on, she protested instantly, but when I move on top again meeting our center, she started to moan. Louder this time.

I keep on grinding on top of her, I open her legs wider, fuck she's dripping as I felt her cum from my center.

"Oooh! D! Shit! More! Aah!"

I closed my eyes, imagining Em's face while grinding on her. In my mind, it's Em I'm making love with.

"D! I'm cumming! Aaaah!"

"Fuck, love!"

I collapsed on top of her panting, when I reach my orgasm.

"You're so good, love." napadilat ako pagkasabi niya noon, tinalikuran ko siya at hinanap ang damit ko. "What are you doing?" naguguluhang tanong niya.

"Thanks for the good fuck." sabi ko habang sinusuot ang damit ko, ni hindi ko maaalala ang pangalan niya.

"That's it?!" galit na hinagis niya ang unan sa akin na agad kong nasalo.

"Tss. You had a great time, so as I. We're quits." tinalikuran ko siya at hindi na nagulat na humabol at niyakap ako sa likuran.

Same old scenes.

"Can you stay a little longer, love?"

"Tss. Stop calling me that!" inis na inalis ko ang kamay niya, not minding her calling and begging me to stay.

Dumiretso ako sa kotse at pinasibad iyon. Agad akong nagbabad sa shower pagkarating sa bahay hindi na ako nag-abalang alisin ang damit ko. I let the cold water numb my whole being. Dahil pag hindi ko ginawa 'yun mababaliw na ko sa kakaisip.

I met Emerald when my whole world was turning upside down. Ayoko pa sanang sumama kay ate Missy, I just met her through pictures. But personally, mabibilang sa daliri na nakita at nakasama ko siya. We may have the same father, but my Mom was a monster. Addicted to alcohol and drugs, when Dad passed away. Sa akin niya lahat binuhos ang galit sa mundo na para bang kasalanan ko iyon.

She jumps from one man to another. At my young age, sex was a typical scene. There was even a time na pinipilit nila akong manood sa pag se sex nila. That's how fucked up my childhood is. I was in highschool when I know to myself that I like girls. Maybe seeing the worst men whom my mother with, my inner self decided that way. Being with man freak the hell out of me. Literal na nasusuka ako.

Ayoko sanang sumama kay Ate Missy nun, I have trust issues and don't want others to pity me. Pride na nga lang ang meron ako, aalisin ko pa ba. But after that night na nasaksihan ko ang pagpatay kay Mom at muntikan ko na ring pagkamatay, Ate Missy got my whole custody.

I'm always alone, nagkukulong sa kwarto, kahit na anong amo niya sa akin hindi niya ako mapalabas. I had nightmares everynight then, pero hindi niya nalalaman. I hate being a burden to others. I know nahihirapan na siya at mas gusto ko pang pahirapan, for her to give me up. For me, no one can accept who I am. Kahit na siya pa na kapatid ko. Nanay ko nga ginawang miserable ang buhay ko siya pa kaya. But Ate Missy is patience on me.

It was rainy afternoon nang mapilitan akong bumaba dahil sa gutom. Nasa hagdan pa lang ako ay naamoy ko na ang baked cookies sa buong bahay.

Cookies is one of weakness, actually anything related to pastries. It is my comfort food. Agad akong dumiretso sa kusina, wondering who it was. Because Ate would never bake. Simpleng luto nga nakakasunog na siya bake pa kaya.

There I saw a girl, nakatalikod habang inaalis sa oven ang iba pang cookies. I was instantly mesmerized by her looks pagharap sa akin. Pawisan man, pero maganda pa rin. She pouted and sighed ng tingnan niya ang kakahango na cookies. I got starstruck the moment I met her eyes. And those lips, fuck. Gustong gusto kong halikan.

Right then and there nagustuhan ko siya. Emerald Galvez, as pretty and stunning as the owner. We became close, I took all the opportunities to get closer to her kahit pa aali aligid rin si Syd. One of their friends also that always pissing me off. I can feel and see that she likes Em too. But still confuse, hindi ko nga maisip paano niya hindi maamin ang totoong siya.

I thought hindi niya maaamin, rather hindi sila magkakagustuhan. I am just making my move but destiny won't allow me to tangle with them. Especially Em, pinili niya si Syd, kahit na ako na una pa lang ang vocal na sa nararamdaman sa kanya. I feel devastated that's why I flew here in States. Mending and fixing my broken heart.

"Ate."

"Tss. Kanina pa kita tinatawagan! Bakit ngayon ka lang sumagot." napakamot ako sa sentido ko, this is what I hate the most, Ate's nagging.

"I didn't notice. It's on silent mode."

"When are you going back to Philippines?" she's currently at Dubai doon nakabase ang trabaho niya. "You still have money?" kahit na palagi niyang pinipilit na kargo niya ako, I didn't allow myself to defend on her, especially om financial status.

Kahit na ganoon si Mom, hindi niya pinakialaman ang savings na iniwan sa akin ni Dad. Bukod pa sa family business nila Mommy na meron rin akong nakukuha. Yun ang ginamit ko to invest in stock market, hindi alam yun ni Ate. Because I hate explaining. Kaya palagi na lang, kahit hindi ako naghihingi, nagpapadala pa rin siya. I didn't even bother to check kung magkano na yun.

"Ate stop worrying about me, I'm old enough." I even fucking girls for fuck sake! pero siyempre hindi ko yun pwedeng i voice out. Knowing Ate, she will freaked out. "And stop sending me money, I told you I have my own."

"Wala akong pakialam, it's my obligation as your sister. Si Em ba ang dahilan kaya ayaw mong bumalik?"

"No. I told you, Mom's lawyer called me about their family business." I rolled my eyes, Ate is really annoying sometimes pero wala eh. Siya lang ang pamilya ko na nagtiyaga sa akin.

"Then go back asap. Finished your studies D, stop making me worry."

"I will comeback Ate. And please don't worry okay. Don't worry about my studies, I continue it here. Nag advance take na rin ako ng unit to finish faster."

I heard her sighed. "Okay. I'll hanged up na, work calling. I love you. Call me from time to time please. Take care always D."

"Okay, I will. Love you too, Ate. Take care too."

I sighed then hanged up the call. I get a beer and drink it, it will be a long night for sure. I got my phone and swipe it. Showing Em's face as may wallpaper.

I miss her.

But I need also to full myself together bago ako humarap sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung kailan mawawala ang pagmamahal ko siya. I bet it will take a lifetime.

Kahit na ilang babae pa ang ipagpalit palit ko, relasyon man o kama, nothing compares to her. Walang makahigit. Napapikit ako at kumuha ulit ng isang lata. I don't know what's in her that I can't get out in my system. I just love her so much.

Fuck.

Hindi ko alam gaano karami ang nainom ko. Agad akong napabangon sa kama dahil sa malakas na tunog ng alarm ng phone ko.

"Shit!" agad akong kumilos, sermon na naman ang aabutin ko kay Mr. Lee. He is the family lawyer na tumutulong sa akin hindi lang sa business, pati sa studies ko.

I have to do multitasking, learning the business while studying hangga't maari ayokong nag-iisip because it only means na maiisip ko si Em.

At dahil masokista ako, I stalk her account. Na pinagsisihan ko rin. I saw how happy she is with that big smile on her face. She is glowing.

But I am not the reason.

Fuck.