Deceret Series #2: Bleed for Love

Chapter 20

"What do you even know about our friendship, Rigor?" I asked dryly.

"Let's just talk again once you've calmed down." He gave me a glance and then sighed. "Mag-hapunan ka." Then he left.

I didn't realize that my hands were balled into fists and was shaking terribly until he left the apartment. Napaupo ako sa malapit na upuan, nanghihina ang mga tuhod. Kusa nalang tumulo ang mga luha ko. I wiped it angrily. I hate the fact that he's right about everything he said and I don't know how to respond to my conflicted feelings towards my friend. Ilang beses ko na bang itinanggi sa sarili ko na maaaring bumalik ulit si Sorcha sa pagd-droga? I knew it from the very start. Since she started abandoning me again and joining other circle of friends. I felt betrayed that she got back with Collin even after everything that's happened between them.

Taliwas sa bilin ni Rigor, hindi ako nag-abalang mag-hapunan nang gabing iyon.

The next day, I asked permission from my manager if I could leave work early. Buti nalang at hindi na rin niya tinanong kung bakit at kaagad namang pumayag. I changed from my uniform into a black bandage dress and put my hair up in a ponytail. I applied a bit of makeup and red lipstick. Kanina pa ako nakapag-text kay Sorcha pero wala naman siyang reply. Nevertheless, I'm going to show up to this party even if I'm uninvited.

Even though Sorcha's parents weren't fond of me, nakakapunta naman ako sa bahay nila. Sorcha has been throwing parties each time her parents are out for a business trip. When I arrived, I could hear the loud music blasting from a distance. I crossed the street and pressed the doorbell.

"Ma'am Czarina, ikaw pala!" one of the helpers opened the gate for me. She smiled at me.

"Si Sorcha?"

"Nasa taas po, kasama ang mga kaibigan niya."

Nakaramdam ako ng bahagyang kirot pero inignora ko ito at tinanguan ang kasambahay. I entered the house. She sure likes to throw big parties. A sea of drunken teenagers were dancing on the living room. Some were already making out in the couch. The kitchen is packed with different faces from different schools here in La Union. Hindi na nakialam ang mga kasambahay at nasa gilid lamang, halatang kinakabahan sa maaaring mangyari kapag nalaman ito ng mga magulang ni Sorcha.

I went upstairs and headed towards her room. Iyong room ng parents niya saka mga kuya niya, naka-lock. The rest of the available rooms are occupied with different strangers. I twisted the doorknob and opened the door without even knocking. Muntik na akong mapasigaw nang makitang ibang tao ang nasa loob ng kwarto niya.

"Shit!"

"Sorry!" kaagad kong isinara ang pinto, namumula ang buong mukha. Humigit ako ng isang malalim na hininga. When I turned, a drunk guy is staggering towards me down the hallway. Bigla akong natakot at kaagad na umabante sa kasunod na kwarto.

"Sorcha?" this time, I tried to knock. I could hear laughter and some noises inside. Pinihit ko ang doorknob at pumasok sa loob. As soon as I stepped inside, my entire body froze.

Sorcha, together with her friends were circling a glass coffee table. She grinned while carefully making a straight line of white powder using her credit card. The girls next to her were whispering and giggling to each other. Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko. None of them even noticed that I was standing there.

"Czarina, ikaw pala."

I turned and saw Collin, stepping out of the bathroom. Basa ang buhok at walang suot na panaplot sa itaas. He grinned at me as if it's normal to see them snorting cocaine in the guest room.

Hindi ko siya pinansin at dumiretso sa kaibigan. The other girls looked up at me when they heard me approaching. Sorcha's still bent over the glass table, snorting slowly with a lazy smile on her face.