kat was sitting on the couch, just thinking about everything that happened. she knew that henry was back, the kids were back, all of the men in her life were back.. it seemed like everything was going well for everyone but her. she was still suffering from her past trauma. she felt like she couldn't talk to aragon, even though they were close. very close. kat loved her very much, she was like a mother to her, but sometimes she felt like she didn't deserve aragon. like aragon, kat loves anne a lot, but sometimes they have too much in common. the trauma, night terrors, the scar, etc. sometimes anne was just too much for kat. she was only 18, and she wasn't educated that much. with jane, kat felt a little too much pressure on her. sometimes she felt like jane hated her, but other times she was sure she loved kat. but deep down, she felt like jane despised her. her and anna were best friends, but kat felt like anna didn't understand feelings very well. so she felt like she couldn't talk to anna since she thought that anna would try to make her smile even if she didn't feel like smiling. parr, just like aragon, kat loved her so much. she felt like she could go to her if she had any issues, but at the same time she thought parr was too busy for her, so she often never said anything if she had a panic attack or night terror. she felt like she couldn't talk to any of the queens. and the children? uh, THEY ARE CHILDREN. she couldn't talk to them like that, they are only like 10. well, besides mae. she's like 10 months old. so, talking to anyone in this house was a "nope" for kat. so there she was, just sitting on her couch, picking at her perfect, blemish-free skin. parr sat next to her, holding mae. "hun? are you okay? you've been acting weird lately." parr said. mae reached out to kat, wanting her to hold her. kat shrugged and took mae, sitting her on her lap. "i'm fine. that's just the way i am." kat said, not wanting to make her girlfriend worry. "kat, i'm always here if you need to talk, you know that?" parr said and put her hand on kat's knee. kat flinched and nodded. mae was playing with kats hair, occasionally trying to eat it. kat booped mae and looked back at parr. "i know there's something you're not telling me, katherine." parr said, looking at kat with a mixture of worry and slight curiosity on her face. "well uh.." kat glanced at parr's hand that was still sitting on her knee. ".. i guess i.." kats voice broke at the end of that small sentence, so she cleared her throat and started again. "i guess i just.. don't feel like i deserve you guys. like, i love you all but sometimes i feel like everybody else either hates me or doesn't really.." kat couldn't finish her sentence before she started to cry. mae looked at kat and looked at her sadly. mae hugged kat and rubbed her back. she got that from her mother. parr did the same as mae. parr took mae and asked jane to keep an eye on her. she walked back to her girlfriend and stared at her. "katherine, i love you so much and would never, ever hate you. you're probably the best thing that's ever happened to me. and i'm gonna show that to you." parr picked up kat, bridal style, and walked to kats bedroom. kats face was red and she didn't know what to do or think. parr gently layer kat on her bed. "i understand if you don't want to do this. just say the word." parr said, sitting at the end of kats bed. kat just nodded. "no, do it. i want to feel loved." kat said, hugging her knees. parr nodded and told the queens that if they heard anything from kats room to not question it.
parr walked back into kats room. just standing in the doorway. "so... uh.." parr said, scratching the back of her neck. kat looked away, embarrassed. "it's been a while.." kat said, her attention now on her closet door. "we don't have to—" "no, i want to do this. it'll finally be my choice if i want to or not." kat finally looked at parr. parr nodded and smiled softly. kat laid on her bed. parr sighed quietly and walked towards kats bed. she crawled on top of kat and kissed her. kat wrapped her arms around parr's back. parr left a trail of kisses from kats mouth, to her neck, and she stopped at her chest. she glanced up at kat as if she was asking 'Can I do this? are you okay?' kat just nodded and hid her face in her hands. parr kissed her chest gently, then slowly moved kats sweater down. parr glanced at the door, and felt like she needed to lock it. so she got up and was about to lock it, when she saw a pair of brown eyes peeking in. parr opened the door a little, and there was anna. "i knew it-" parr put her hands over anna's mouth and mouthed 'get out' anna glanced at kat and smirked. then walked off. parr breathed a sigh of relief and locked the door. but then she heard anna shout: "THE SECKS IS HAPPENING NOW!" parr sighed and retreated back to her girlfriend. kat didn't even want to know what happened.
parr kissed kats chest again, lowering her sweater more and more. kat was still hiding her face in her hands. parr moved her hand down to kats shorts. parr looked at kat again, who glared at her like 'what are you waiting for?' parr nodded as an apology, and slowly took off kats shorts. parr just wanted to wait for a while before... that.. because she didn't quite figure out how to do it with a girl yet. so she just continued kissing kats chest. parr moves one of her hands to kats BoObIeS and massaged it. kat moaned quietly before covering her mouth. parr glanced up at kat. kat just looked away, still covering her mouth. parr fiddled with kats bOoBiEs. kat was just trying not to do anything she might regret. like removing her hand from her mouth. parr finally brought her hand back to kats crotch. she rubbed her fingers against the fabric. "you frickin idiot, stop." kat mumbled, trying not to moan. "sorry, couldn't hear that." parr said, still continuing. kat groaned and focused her attention on her closet door again. parr removed kats underwear and rubbed her pEePeE. kat moaned loudly and slapped both of her hands on her mouth, her face bright red. parr smirked at kat, teasing her. "shut up.." kat muttered. parr started to rub faster, making kat close her legs slightly.
lol i'm done now. you can just imagine everything else, i'm done
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i can't do this anymore
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katherine howard x cathryn parr smut
Fanfictionit might take until the smut happens, but this is just for a friend
