Tegan : heading to school
Dad : have fun
Tegan ; i won't
I walk out the door going to school
Tegan : yo yo bella how does it feel to be no longer a virgin
Bella ; i thought it would hurt more
Sara : she says it wasn't that painful
Jenna ; I'm scared its gonna be painful
Sara : same
Tegan ; i think its just people pain tolerances like we know bella doesn't feel pain
Sara ; I'm ok with stuff
Jenna ; I'm awful
Bella ; it probley does just depend but for me it didn't hurt and itd pretty fun and man we are all missing out
Jenna ; aleast u know u don't have to pay now
Bella ; yh
Sara : but there arw still 3 girls left to lose it
Bella ; well hurry we have 3 weeks left
Tegan : 1 week for each girl
Bella : maybe
Sara : were see but jenna is so gonna be next
Jenna : were see
Tegan : time will tell
Bella : we make it quick cause we have 3 and half weeks untill Hawaii
Tegan : God i can't wait for Hawaii
Sara : its gonna be so fun
Jenna : the sun i can't wait for the sun
Tegan : tans
Bella : beach's
Sara : boys
Bella : bring on the boy
The bell then goes so we head to class
Tegan : yo yo
Jonah : yo
Tegan : i am so tired i just wanna sleep
Jonah : well u can't
Tegan : sadly I'm stuck with u
Jonah ; oi be nice to me
Tegan : why would i do that
Jonah : cause we are going on a date Friday and I'm gonna be your future boyfriend . So your gonna have to be nice with me
Tegan ; don't change shit i will carry on being mean
Jonah : thats just rude
Tegan : deal with it
Jonah : I'll guess I'll have to
Tegan : theres so guessing u will have too
Jonah : ok
Someone in my glass then gets a nose bleed and i look away
Jonah : u good
Tegan : fine just i hate blood
Jonah : why
Tegan : something happend to me and my brother when we younger and we've hated blood ever since . And i normally pass out at the sight at of it
Jonah : your joking
Tegan ; I'm not joking
Jonah : what happend why don't u like blood
Tegan ; it doesn't matter but just know i can't stand it so don't ever get a nose bleed of cut yourself
Jonah ; i will try becareful
Tegan : good
Jonah : tell me what happend
Tegan : no its personal
Jonah : and u tell me sometime personal I'll tell u something personal
Tegan : u first
Jonah : fine a few years ago my mom got cancer and when she got diagnosed i went online and started live streaming on you now . And i sang
Tegan : is your mom ok
Jonah : yh shes better now
Tegan : ok good
Jonah : but yh you now is what got me into the whole music thing like i was into it from a young age but it made me love music
I nod my head
Jonah : so what happend to u and romeo
Tegan : my dad picked me and brother up from school and i was like 4 . And me and romeo walked throw our front door and we saw our mom cutting her wrists open with a kitchen knife . And she feel to the floor in a pile of her own blood and since seeing my mom in that state me and romeo have been scared of blood ever since . And me and him pass out when see blood
Jonah : jeuse i coudent imagen seeing something like that
I nod my head
Tegan ; it was horrible
Jonah ; yh
Tegan : but oh well just don't hurt yourself
Jonah ; i won't
Tegan : ok
Jonah : think of blood as water dyed red
Tegan : I've tryed everything to get over my fear nothing worked
Jonah : are u scared of your own blood
Tegan ; i feel over last week and my nose poored i almost passed out my brother atchally passed out
Jonah : why do i wanna see u pass out
Tegan : cause u would probley film it
Jonah ; no i woudent
Tegan ; sure
Jonah ; what happens when u pass out
Tegan ; it's only a few seconds I'm out
Jonah ; what do u see tho
Tegan : nothing its just all black
Mr keem ; u can go
Skip rest of the day
Tegan ; jennnnna i heard james asked u out
Jenna : he did he was like i really like u i wanna get to know u more will u go on a date with me
Tegan : aww
Jenna ; were going ice skating
Tegan : yay u have a date
Jenna ; i have a fucking date
Tegan : lets hope he asks u to date
Jenna ; if he asks me to prom I'm sorry but i am ditching u girls for him
Tegan : well i hope u would ditch us i want u to go with james
Jenna : now lets see if he asks me
Tegan : waiting game
Jenna : so why the hell haven't u told me u and jonah have a date Friday
Tegan : how do u know
Jenna : he was like jenna me and tegan have a date can u give me some ideas of what to do
Tegan : he asked u
Jenna ; he did
Tegan : aww hes so cute
Jenna : ah u like him
I nudge her
Jenna : u do
Tegan : just shut up ok
Jenna : no u like him
Tegan : a little
Jenna : aww
Tegan : hate u
Jenna : u love me your just not open enough with your feelings
Tegan : i can't help it
Jenna : well work it i want to know what your feeling cause every time someone asks are u ok u go im fine or I'm ok . U don't go into depth
Tegan : oh shut up missy but we need to figure out what your wearing for your date
Jenna ; i know me u bella and sara all round mine tomrrow to find an outfit
Tegan : your outfit your hair your make-up all of it
Jenna : yes right see u
Tegan : see ya
I carry on walking until i get to mine
Tegan : yo
I mess up romeos hair amd i go to the kitchen getting a drink and a snack
Romeo : saw mom today
Tegan : how is she
Romeo : yh she says she feels better and that's shes sorry she keeps doing this to us
Tegan ; did u tell her that she doesn't need to be sorry
Romeo : yh i said u don't need to be sorry but she just kept saying sorry and how much she loves us . And i told her we love her a lot
Tegan : good
Romeo : i know u don't like going to the rehab but mom wants to see u
Tegan : I'll go see her soon
Romeo : good
Tegan : but u come with me
Romeo : i was planning on going anyway
Tegan : good
Romeo : but i have to tell u something
Tegan : what
Romeo : mom told me shes signed a dnr form
Tegan ; isn't that the do not resuscitate
Romeo : yh
Tegan ; for god sake
Romeo : i said she needs to get rid of that but she is not lisening and shes keeping the dnr form
Tegan : when i see her im talking to her because i do not want to live a life with out my mom .
Romeo : i don't either i want mom around for as long as possible and with that dnr form . If she dies doctors won't be able to do anything they will just let her die
I shake my head
Romeo : she says she fine and she sorry but i just feel like as soon as she gets out of rehab shes just gonna try again and again untill the damage is done and she's gone .
Tegan : we just can't let her out of sight
Romeo : i know
Tegan : I'm gonna cancel going to Hawaii I'm gonna stay so i can be with mom
Romeo : u can't miss out on Hawaii u and your frineds have been planning this trip for years
Tegan : but mom is more important then a holiday and u can't look after her the whole time
Romeo : cooper it's 2 weeks i can handle it
Tegan : no I'm not going
Romeo : yes u are you've saved and planned for this for years your going and your gonna have a good time and I'm not taking no for an answer . And u need to rember when i graduated i went away and u were left to look after mom for month so your going
Tegan : fine
Romeo : and u need to rember u move away after summer so u gotta get used to being away
I nod my head
Romeo : I'm still jelouse your moving to the other side of the world
Tegan : your moving aswell
Romeo : but Australia where the sun is
Tegan : and your moving to England
Romeo : mhm but still
Tegan : can't belive I'm moving to Australia your moving to England
Romeo : its mad and its gonna be so quiet here
Tegan : dad says its nice when it quiet but i reccon after month he'll be like the quiet is driving me mad
Romeo ; probley but we need to convince mom to move either with me or with u
Tegan : yh
Romeo : we're just see when the time get closer
Tegan : yh right I'm going upstairs
Romeo : see ys
I walk upstairs going on my laptop for a while
Follow smooth_why_dont_we on instgram
