I Can't Make You Love Me | •JeongMi•

Chapter 9

jeongyeon

i didn't go to school today since i wanted to spend my day with mom, im in my room right now waiting for the right moment to talk to mom. 

minutes passed

i felt this is the right moment to talk to mom so i stood up from my bed and left my room, then i saw mom making food

"i thought you already gone for school" mom said and didn't even looked at me

looks like she's really acting like she doesn't care for me and doesn't remembered what happened last night

"mom..." i shorty said

"hmm" mom hummed

"im just wondering if you're free today" i asked and scratched my head

"why? do you want me to go to your school? did you something again?" mom asked

"uhmm no, i just want to have a date with you a mother and daughter" i said and looked down

"why?" mom plainly said

this is hurting me! fuck how can she act so good! how can she act like she doesn't care

"mom! how can you act so good! how can you act like you dont care at me at all?" i said and tried not to let my tears fall down, i gotta be strong

"this is how you wanted me to do, im just doing what you want" mom plainly said and still not looking at me

"eomma...i know everything now, please stop acting like this. im so sorry for everything ive done and said.. eomma i wanna make it up to you" said and tears suddenly fell down

i couldn't hold it anymore, this is hurting me. 

mom didn't said anything and it made me cry even more.

then suddenly i felt someone hugging me... mom hugged me

"im sorry jeongyeon... i should've explained it to you more sooner" mom said and kissed the top of my head

"i promise to make it up to you honey, i promise to be a better mother for you this time" mom said and hugged me tightly 

"im sorry eomma...im so sorryyy" i said

"shh, it's fine honey there's nothing you should be sorry about" mom said and held my face

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mom and i went to a museums, theme parks, movie and eat dinner in a fancy restaurant. 

i can't explain the feeling im feeling right now, ive been waiting for this to happen what if dad was here too?

i looked at mom who's still eating her stake, then i suddenly asked

"mom.. do you somehow want to talk to dad?" i asked nervously then mom looked at me

"to be honest if i could, i would" mom said 

"i had his number... wanna talk to him?" i said

"y-you are talking with him after all this time?" mom asked and i nodded

"ill talk to him whenever im ready" mom said

"you're not angry that im talking to him?" i asked

"im disappointed but at the same time i understand you, you also need your dad" mom said and smiled at me