There is a cage that holds me down
I have an urge to escape but the cold bars keep me in
Chains grasp my ankles, digging into my flesh
The worst part is not the feeling of being trapped
It is not the loneliness; the isolation is what keeps me in
What is the scariest part about this?
This is my normal.
This jailcell in my head is my home
The darkness is my blanket
It is me in that cell
Stuck in a world I can't escape
Every time I push to break free the real world pulls me back in
Stay in! my brain tells me
I have become a slave to my own fears
The darkness chains me down
The shame keeps me from breaking free
The fear is the monster staring at me from outside the cage
The monster has red eyes, horns that protrude from its head
The hooves scrap the ground
the darkness creeps closer covering my body like a snake
The feeling of isolation gets stronger and stronger
Outside my mind, I am hit over and over again
words, actions, ideas that come in and anger the creature even more
the darkness still keeping me down
keeping me caged in, as the creature rages on outside the cage
The scariest part is not being locked up
it is letting the creature in.
