I forgot that i am a Villainess

*Chapter 6

my heart shook

my eyes stings but i didn't let myself cry

i am fed up with it

it's too painful

to know that he is already with someone else

in just one night with other girl he forgotten about me

like i never existed

like we never met each other

like he isn't my friend

i missed him destroying my peaceful time when i am reading books

he always try to get my attention

and when he always play with me

he always initiate a talk

he always smiled at me warmly

he is always their eventhough i will not call him

he is always by my side from the moment we met

i distracted myself by studying hard
and spending more time with my family

i spend my time perfecting my swordmanship and there are times that my teacher Carlos praises me from my talent in swordmanship

he also taught me other self defences and different martial arts

i build walls for my heart

so that when we meet again

i wont have to be hurt again

i wont cry again

i wont ran again

i will face all of the obstacles ahead

i won't try to get his attention

i will not create troubles for Helena

i will lead a peaceful life

but i know creating a wall on my heart is still being a coward

but i cant help myself to protect my heart

because i know the feeling of being hurt

i know it very well

i spend time reading many magic books because my debu is near

my 7th birthday is near

and after my birthday

at the capital city the Phoenix City

at the city hall located at the center of the city they will test all of the kids magic that turned 7 this year so that the children can prepare for their future jobs like being swordsman, alchemist, mage, adventurer, enter a sect and so on

and they can also know their attributes and their mana level

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it is now my birthday

the celebration starts at 7pm

i wore a white lolita dress with cyan ribbons that matched my eyes

i looked cute, simple but elegant and i liked it

"Milady the party will start"

Suki says

i nod at her and she guided me to the reception in the mansion

i walked in the stairs and every eye is unto mine

i walked slowly

my curly silvery hair is swaying while walking down the stairs