Without you - Leila

The ball.

(A/N I will try and put all the other parts I write in chapters to make it easier to read :D)

The ball

I had fallen asleep and was now being awaken by Liam shaking me and saying "baby you have to get up" I opened my eyes to see his staring at me, wow he was so handsome, he was wearing a tux. I smiled and asked "why are you wearing a tux?" he smiled and said "look, my fathers works ball is on and I have to go, he wants to introduce me to his boss but I don't want to go without you, my mother has bought you a gown to wear if you will go, it's hanging up by there" he pointed to this beautiful light pink gown. He told me I had an hour to get ready, I got up and went into the shower, I got out of the shower and curled my hair. I slipped on the gown, it felt lovely on my skin, Liam's mother had also bought me a silver pair of heels and a silver clutch. I put them both on and added my own piece of jewellery, I put on the necklace Liam had bought me, I put on my make-up, I tried to make sure it wasn't heavy and I then just stared in the mirror for a moment, I have to admit, I look stunning. Liam walked in and said quietly "wow" I smiled, he came over to me and hugged me, I laughed and said "careful, you'll crinkle the dress" he laughed and we went downstairs. When we got downstairs his parents were waiting for us, his father was wearing a tux similar to Liam and his mother was wearing a stunning gold dress much classier than mine and her hair was done up in a tight bun, she looked lovely. We then went outside to where a limo was waiting for us, I honestly feel like a princess. When we pulled up to the place, it looked like a castle, it had huge gates before we went in and a long drive up to this magnificent palace, it was no where near the looks of a normal house. We walked through the door and my mouth dropped in awe, the room was a light gold colour, in front of me was a giant staircase then up above me was a huge chandelier, it was so pretty. I was hooked onto Liam's arm, we were led into a huge room full of people, most dancing, Liam turned to look at me and he said "would you like a dance" in a really funny posh voice, I laughed, copied the voice and said "indeed, I would" Liam took me to the floor, he was a really good dancer, I kept getting the moves wrong and I kept laughing. We danced for a while but then this boy about my age started talking to Liam, he then said "would you mind if I cut in" I looked at Liam. He said "by all means" I was nervous, I wanted to dance with Liam, the boy looked at me up and down and said "wow, you look beautiful, by the way what is your name?" I smiled at the comment then said "Leila" he said "nice name, I'm jack" I nodded and we danced in silence. Soon after Liam came and cut in again, I was delighted to be dancing with him again. He smiled and said "enjoyed dancing with jack" I laughed and said "I would much rather you" a man walked into the room and shouted, "dinner will be served in 10 minutes". I was really starting to get hungry, my belly didn't agree, I turned to Liam and asked "do you know where the bathroom is?" he looked at me and clicked, he put his arm around my waist and led me to the bathroom. When we made it to the bathroom, it was empty, I pushed Liam outside and I was sick. I don't feel like food now. We walked down the stairs and Liam's father came to us, he said "my boss wants to meet you now" I looked at Liam, he put his arm round my waist and leaded me to his fathers boss. He was a tall skinny bloke, dark brown hair and dark almost black eyes. He said "hello, you must be Liam and you are?" Liam nodded and I said "Leila, Liam's girlfriend" we still hadn't told our parents we were technically engaged. The man smiled and said "my name is max, it's really nice to meet you both" I smiled. Behind max was that boy jack, he was staring at me, I felt really self-conscious. I cuddled Liam to show him I was taken, he turned to look away. We walked to the dinner hall with max, the room was again huge, it had quite a long table and another chandelier, smaller than the one in the main hall. When I got to my seat next to Liam's, Liam pulled the chair out for me to sit down, jack came and sat next to me, didn't he get the hint. I started to trace my fingers up and down Liam's arm which was on the table, he looked at me and smiled, I love his smile. Food came for starters it was pate or prawns, I chose pate, it was nice and light, I didn't eat a lot of it though. Liam had the same and ate it all. For main it was salmon or haddock, wow they liked fish. I chose salmon and picked at it, I wasn't that much of a fan of fish, so I ate the salad on the side. Liam had haddock and he didn't eat all of it. For dessert I didn't want anything, I was full but Liam had chocolate cake and ate all of it, I had a spoonful, it was delightful. When everyone had finished, max made a toast he said "I would like to thank everyone for coming tonight, you all got lovely families and it's been nice meeting them" everyone chinked glasses. Liam was drinking wine but I didn't because of the baby, I was going to be sticking to the rules, I wanted this baby to healthy. Liam and I went back to the dance floor and danced, Liam tried to get his hand on my bum, I slapped him when he got there, he laughed and then pouted, I laughed at him. There were a lot of posh people here and so many pretty ones, Liam asked me "what are you thinking of?" I said "nothing" he said "yeah you are lei tell me" I shook my head. He didn't push and left it as that. We left the place at 1am, I'm so tired. We got in and I went straight to the room and stripped into my pyjamas, Liam came in and stripped down to his boxers, I didn't mind. We laid in bed, I was laying across Liam stroking his stomach, he laughed and said "well, what were you thinking about earlier" I stopped and moved away, he said a bit louder "lei what's up, you've been acting weird, tell me" I knew if I said it, it would hurt his feelings. I said "I feel weird, I have been for a while, I don't know whether it's the baby or just us" he looked down and went quiet, I knew it would upset him. I sat up and looked at him, he said "do you want to break up then or..." I said quickly "no, I've just been feeling weird and that's why sometimes I don't want to cuddle you or anything" he smiled, why is he smiling. I said "why are you smiling" he laughed, why was he laughing. He said through the laughter "I thought it was something else" I said "what did you think it was?" he stopped laughing and said "I thought you wouldn't want me because I "knocked" you up" I laughed and said "I will always want you, just not for cuddles and stuff" he smiled. I went back and laid across his chest he was so hot, I still didn't understand why he picked me, there are many girls, prettier than me. I looked up at him and said "why did you pick me?" he smiled "have you got that long?" he said. I laughed and said "it won't take you long, I'm not that good" he was shocked, he looked at me stupidly, I didn't get why he was like that, he said "you amazing, why would you say that" I sighed "because there were so many gorgeous girls looking at you tonight, I don't see why you picked me" he gently pushed me off him and got up, what was he doing? He went under his bed and brought out a little book, it was a scrapbook, inside was pictures of me and Liam, it was amazing. He smiled and read out a note in the back. "Leila my heart, my soul, how could I live without you, you are my world. From when I first seen you, you were beautiful and I was surprised you were not taken. Every time I look at you, my heart skips a beat, every time I touch you, I feel like jelly. When I look back to that night when our bodies were against each other I wished I could have stayed there forever. Leila Coleman I truly love you and want to stay with you forever, marry me." I was shocked, when did he write that? I looked at him, he was down on one knee, oh no, not again. He went into his bedside cabinet draw and pulled out a little box, he smiled and said "well I planned that a smoother way but what do you say" I jumped off the bed and into his arms, "I thought I told you once already, yes" I smiled. After kissing we got back on the bed, I picked up the scrapbook to look at the note. It was blank. I turned to Liam "you came up with that just now" he laughed and said "yeah, told you it would take a while, now do you see why I picked you" he kissed me, I smiled. I flicked through the scrapbook, there was one picture I loved, it was me and Liam on the beach but it was just our hands, it was so pretty, Lana had gone through a phase with her camera. Liam got onto the bed and put the ring on my finger, it was gold with 3 diamonds in it, two small ones surrounding a bigger one. It was beautiful. I smiled and kissed him again, I then went back to laying across him and soon fell asleep.

I woke up in the morning, feeling sick again. I ran to the bathroom to find Liam in the shower, he had never seen me sick before, I shouted as I walked in don't look, I was sick in the toilet, I washed my mouth with water from the tap. I turned to see Liam looking at me I said "you watched the whole time, didn't you?" he looked down at his feet and said "yeah I wanted to see what the big deal was, I'm sorry" I shook my head and walked out of the bathroom. The shower soon ended and Liam came out, I was sitting on the bed, he said to me "the man from the estate office called he said we have the house and we can move in the next month" I smiled I couldn't hold it in, I ran to him and hugged his wet body but as I did his towel fell off, I laughed, he went red. He changed the subject and said "do you want to tell our parents today?" he pushed back a bit of my fringe which was hanging forward, I smiled and nodded. We walked downstairs to tell Liam's parents, I feel so nervous, we got into the living room and Liam told his parents to sit down, they did, he then grabbed my hand and said "me and Leila are engaged, we haven't set a date for the wedding yet" his mother squealed with delight and his father stood up and shook Liam's hand before hugging me. I felt ill, I turned to Liam and whispered in his ear "I feel ill baby, I'm going to go lie down" I slowly trudged up the stairs. I flopped on the bed, and just laid there. Was all this moving to fast? What would it do to our relationship? Yeah I love him but I don't think I'm ready. Am I having second thoughts?