My Future {2jae}

Chapter 6: I swear...

Death. A complex and scary truth that everyone has to face at one point. At the age of three, my red-eared slider got crushed under the weight of our couch. The movers didn't see his small figure crawling across the floor. After searching for hours I was the one to find him with his shell cracked and bloody. At 10 my uncle died of cancer. I didn't even know he had it. The last time I saw him he was in a wheelchair with little to no hair. I didn't question why he was like that, I was just happy to be celebrating his birthday with our family. I cried hard when I found out of his passing.

At 12, I lost my grandfather. That one hit me hardest. Changed my view on things. I cried to my mother for the first time in forever. It broke me. I remember when my dad brought me toward his casket and told me to say my last goodbye, I broke down. You would think with all of this plus more I'd be prepared for the loss of my firstborn. I couldn't prepare for that type of pain. I'd never be ready no matter how many times I practiced my reaction.

I still went on with life though. I had to for me and my everyone around me. "Baby, come lay down. You'll be tired in the morning, "  I heard from behind me causing me to turn around. I didn't even realize I had been standing at the window in our room. Jaebum stared at me holding his arms open from his seat on the bed. I walked slowly to him before sitting on his lap chest to chest. I laid my head on his shoulder as he wrapped his arms around me tightly.

"Do you ever miss her??" I questioned without thinking. I felt him tense up beneath me before relaxing. "All the time. There's never a moment I don't, " his soft but deep voice entered my ears. I lift my head up and push him down onto the bed before reaching over to turn off the lamp by our bed. I lay my head on his chest pulling the cover over us. "It should've been me, "  I mumble quietly as he ran him fingers through my hair.

"I don't want to hear you say that ever again. If it was you how do you think Sachiko would feel?? Things like this happen and I know it hurts but don't say things like that" he spoke with finality lacing his tone. The more I thought her death the quicker my heart raced. It was beating against my ribs so violently that it hurt. My eyes watered and I felt as if I couldn't breathe. "I didn't do a-anything wrong. Why m-me?? Why us??" I choked out a whine as I struggled to keep my composure.

"I don't know baby but she wasn't in pain when it happened. It was fast. She wasn't in pain anymore. She didn't have to wake up and throw up in the middle of the night. She's okay now. She's watching over Jaeyi right now. I bet she's so proud of you for being this strong" he whispered pulling me closer to him. My nails dug into his arms as I cried gripping onto him.

Suddenly I feel a light weight on my back and I turn my head to see Jaeyi. "Daddy why are you crying??" She asked and I shook my head. "I was just so happy because you're such a big girl and you just keep on growing," I said pulling her down to cuddle with Jaebum and I. I felt so warm holding them close to me. My heart still hadn't steadied to a normal pace but I felt at piece.

I was on my way to work this morning when I got a call. I was being let go because of mental health. That didn't worry much since there was a spot for me at Jaebum's father's law firm. Now that I think about it, this could've easily been set up. I feel my pen get snatched from my hand and I look up. I see Mike staring at me with a smug look. I scrunch up my face in disgust before sighing. "What do you want Mike??" I ask getting impatient.

"I saw you sitting here all by yourself and I thought this would be the perfect time for our date" the man smirked as he sat down in the seat across from me. I started at him uninterested before quickly snatching my pen back. "Mike... I've told you already I'm in a relationship and I have a daughter. I don't like you" I huffed out grabbing my stuff and putting the items in my bag.

His smirk fell as I arose from my seat. He shot up from his chair grabbing my wrist tightly. "let go, if anyone sees you bothering me like this, you'll be arrested." I say clenching my jaw as I struggled to pull my hand from his grip. He let go and I immediately went to rub my sore wrist. "He isn't any good for you. You know his father is in jail for selling drugs beyond what you could imagine and human trafficking. He could be just like him" he said lowly making me stare at him in fear.

"How the hell do you know that??" I ask as my eyes follow his every move. That was something that no one knew. Jaebum didn't even know. Only me and a few others who worked for his father. I represented him in court multiple times to shorten his sentence. Of course not by choice but he was and still is dangerous. Mike smirks as he sees the obvious terror ok my face. "Baby... I know everything, it's not hard if you look hard enough" he says before turning around and walking away from the picnic table where we once sat.

My heart is beating so hard I can hear it in my ears. Life wasn't going well at all. I feel sick. So sick and dizzy. I rush over to a nearby trashcan and hunch over. After throwing up this morning's breakfast, I stumble over my feet. I can't see very well. Only shadows and outlines of the area around me. The wind is knocked out of me once my head hits the ground. I can hear muffled screams...

What if I died right here??

Would anyone care??

Probably not.

I update every five years just for the chapter to be trash. Makes sense💙💙