lost and found

Chapter one

I sat down at the lot, with the guys sitting right next to me. Ponyboy start a fire to keep us warm from the cold summer night. I was observing the night sky. Wondering, when one day I would be able to touch the stars.

From the corner of my eye I see Dallas Winston taking out a cigarette from the pocket of his jacket, then lighting a match with his necklace. He was listening to the guys conversation, butting in every once in a while. I look back down at gang, them telling each other story's. I then blink, everything turns black.

The gang disappeared, and all that left is Johnny and Dallas. I was sitting down on the ground, with them not noticing I was there. I blink once again, Johnny is the hospital and Dallas disappeared. I get up from where I was sitting and run over to him.

"Johnny" I whispered. He takes one last breath, then everything stops. "No! Johnny!" I scream, then Everything fades away. I'm left by myself with tears falling down my face.

Then I appear on the street in the middle of the night. I look around and I see Dallas running from the cops. He had his hand placed where he had been shot. He placed his fake gun at the police, then them shooting him to the ground. I run over to him and kneal right in front of him. I wrap my arms around his dying body, I hold him close to me.

"No! Please Dallas, I need you!" I'm sobbing, everyone else disapears around me. It's just me and him left alone. "I love you" I whisper, then his heart stops beating. I scream up to the sky, mad at how unfair the world is. He wanted to be loved, but he didn't know that someone did love him. More then just some bestfriend, a brother, and buddy. I loved Dallas Winston with all my heart.

I jumped up from sleeping, I was crying. I pulled my knees up to my chest, holding myself. It was two weeks after the guys had died. I felt broken, everything felt out of place. I loved both of them but they were gone...

The sun just began to rise, making the sky golden. I stopped crying and looked up from were I was. The window was open, having the wind blow the curtains. I heard a knock at the door. I got up from the bed and opened the door to see Buck.

"You okay kid? I heard someone scream." This was the usual thing, I had nightmares and would be screaming in my sleep. The same thing would repeat in my dreams, but in different ways.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I put my arms around my body, hugging myself.
He sighned and crossed his arms.

"Are you sure you're gonna be okay?" I nodded my head. "Okay, I'll be downstairs" he started to walk away, heading downstairs. I close the door and turned back to the room.

I walked over to the window and close it. Then went over to the nightstand and turned on the radio. An Elvis Presley song played, while I looked for some clothes to wear. I changed into my outfit and sat back down on the bed.

For the passed two weeks I've been staying in Dallas's room at Bucks. It's the only place I could be able to stay. Since the gang were to worried, it started to I didn't want them too, so I packed up my things and left. I didn't want to bother the gang so I haven't talked to them since that day... It made my comfortable staying here, it still smelled like him. And every other day I would stop by at Johnny's house and just sit across the street from it. There I would still hear Johnny's parents fight.

Everyone is worried for me, but I pushed them away. I wanted to be alone.

After a while of listening to music, I got up and grabbed my bag. I closed the door behind me, and walked down the stairs. Buck was to busy talking to some guy at the bar so he didn't notice me leave.

I walked down the street to the diner. Walking in, the bell at the top of the door rang. I sighned and plopped down on a stool at the counter. I placed down my bag on the stool next to me. A women behind the counter asked what I wanted, I order my usual coffee.