Heart Sore

3

I just rolled my eyes. I usually don't even talk to guys. It makes chills run through my body just being around more then one guy. But for some reason after me being the complicated bitch that I am I'm slowly very slowly starting to like his personality.

"Girl, you want a shot?" Sarah asked as she looked at me

"Sure" I said as I shrugged

She handed me a cup and poured me a shot and we hit cups before taking the shot whole.

"Hot girl shit!" She yelled as she stuck out her tongue

I chuckled bobbing my head to Megan that was blasting from the speakers. Besides the fact of me having anxiety I kinda enjoyed having a little fun.

•

I was on the tipsy side and I was kind of happy I didn't have to work tonight. I was ready to go home even though I was having fun. I was about to leave but I wanted to get a bottle of water before I left. I made my way over to the drink table after saying bye to Sarah, Delay and, his friends.

"Can I have a water please?" I asked as I placed a dollar on the table

"Of course honey" the lady spoke as she looked up at me

"She free momma" I heard a voice say as they approached from behind

I turned around and Bari was literally two inches away from my back touching his front.

"Back up!" I snapped instantly feeling fear strike my heart

"M-my bad" he said as he stepped back

I looked up at him as I took deep breaths. "It's fine" I mumbled before taking the water

"Thank you" I said as I locked eyes with the woman

"Nevaeh is that you, Nancy's daughter?" She asked

I stared at her noticing it was miss Jillian. She was our Sunday school teacher and she was probably the closest friend my birth giver ever had.

I nodded slowly. "Hi miss Jillian" I said as I smiled slightly

"Give me a hug" she said as she immediately walked around the table and embraced me into a hug

Bari just stared confused.

"I'm so glad to see you safe, your so beautiful. You blossomed into a wonderful girl. Most girls in your case would have been the total opposite" she said as she stared at me wiping a tear that had fell

I smiled. "It's nice to see you to and, thank you so much" I said as I smiled

"Jabari how do you know Nevaeh? she wasn't around when you came" miss Jillian said as she looked at Bari

"A friend, met her through Sarah" he said as he stared at me

She nodded. "Well take care hun, stop by sometimes" she said as she hugged me

I hugged her back before slowly walking off.

"I ain't mean to scare you like that pretty, my bad" Bari said as he walked next to me

"It's fine" I mumbled as I continued to walk

"I'm tryna talk to you and you walking away" he said as he kept up with me

I stopped and stood in front of him crossing my arms.

"I said I was sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. I wasn't tryna hurt you I was just tryna let my mom know that you getting shit for free" he said as he looked at me

I nodded. "My anxiety gets the best of me sometimes, I just really wanna get out of here" I said as I looked down

"Can I take you out, we can go somewhere quick. Like a fast food place or something. I'll bring you back to get your car, no longer then a hour" he said as he looked at me

"No I'm fine, thanks for the offer though" I said as I unlocked my car door and got inside

I then pushed start and pulled off. I just wanted to be home.

•

I was laying in my bed scrolling through Instagram. My phone then started ringing and I answered the unknown caller.

"Hello?" I spoke confused

"Sup pretty" I heard a male voice

I rolled my eyes knowing exactly who it was.

"How'd you get my number?" I asked as I stared at the ceiling

"Delay, that don't matter though. I called you to tell you that I didn't mean to scare your little ass earlier, my bad if I made you uncomfortable" He said in a soft tone, softer then his voice usually is he usually got a deep voice

"It's fine, I just get anxiety attacks sometimes. But it's all good" I replied as I put the phone on speaker and fiddled with my fingers

"Alright pretty, so when you gonna let me take you out?" He asked

I just chuckled. "Your still on this? I told you I don't date, that's not on my mind right now" I said as I slightly smiled

"I told you we can go as friends, I ain't tryna force you into nothing you don't want. I just wanna take you out, even if it's for a hour" He spoke

"Okay, I'll let you know on Tuesday. I'm bout to lay down though so goodnight" I said as I got comfortable

"Alright night pretty" he said before I hung up

I smiled. He seemed like a good guy. But nothing good comes from a drug dealer, there's no doubt that he's a drug dealer. Those are the most worse men to get in a relationship, trust me Toxic as fuck. I would know from watching my momma go through many drug dealers from rose. I'm one hundred percent sure, just seeing how scared people are of him and, controlling he is I know for a fact that's exactly what he is. Also him riding in those expensive cars and, outfits I could just imagine what his house looks like.

He seemed like a person with a good heart. But only for those that he loved, otherwise I was a hundred and ten percent sure he was cold blooded and ruthless giving zero fucks about other people's feelings. There for Nevaeh wants no involvement, but a date wouldn't be so bad.

I jumped out my thoughts and flicked off my night light. Yes my scary ass has a night light I don't play bout no ghosts. I soon closed my eyes and drifted asleep.