Let Me Go

Party (B)

*Billies POV*

Fuck man! All I want is to cuddle and finger diddle my girl but she's too fucking busy. Who's busy for a whole ass week? Nobody! She keeps acting all secretive on her phone and won't tell me anything. Somethings up and I get the feeling she's seeing someone behind my back, I don't like the thought of her with someone else. I need to clear my head. I slide on some shoes and go for a walk.

Irrational thoughts cause irrational actions.

Now I know what you're thinking 'Oh she gonna end up at Zoe's house...' Nah fam. I end up at a fucking bar dude.

I slammed back four shots of tequila back to back. After the fourth one I lost count. Fuck I think that was too much. "Yooo, what would you do if you found out your girl was seeing someone else?" In my mind it came out clear as day, but the bar tender chuckles at me. Clearly I'm inebriated, slurring all my words and not making any sense. "Best advice for anything, go home. Sleep it off." Dude a nap sounds so good right now.  I get up to go home and that's the last thing I remember before I wake up to Finneas repeatedly smacking my face.

"Dude stop. The fuck.", my head pounding because my words are way to loud for my ear holes. Finn helps me up, and slings one of my arms around my shoulder, someone else doing the same with my other arm. "Finnyyy! I love youuuu! I love you so much. I love Hayden too. Well I thought I did. I still do. I don't know. I think she's cheating on me. I-" A shrill voice cuts me off, "SHE WHAT?!" I look over and see Kiara is the other person supporting me on our walk home. "Kiaraaaa!" I reach up to touch her face and squish her lil cheeks but she smacks my hand away. "Bitch." I mutter under my breath. Finneas just looks over to her and nods no. No what. Before I can ask either of them, I'm home. Finneas plops me on the couch and covers me up. "Sleep it off Bil."

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I wake up a many hours later with a pounding headache even worse than before. I look over and see some Advil and a note. I down the Advil with some water. I read the note, 'don't fuck things up just because you're happy -finn' He knows me too well. I self-sabotage when I'm happy. Except I'm not. I'm sad, angry, pissed... literally every negative emotion there is, I'm feeling it. My phone dings and I pick it up. I notice the date. It's my birthday, happy birthday to me... I then see a text from Hayden.

My ❤️
-Hey baby! 💕 I miss you! Meet me at the park. 7:00. Don't be late.-

I don't want to go. But I need to confront her. Act normal Billie.

B
-k 😘-

Fuck. Why the fuck isn't anyone home right now? I walk to the kitchen pouring myself a glass of juice before heading upstairs for get ready. I throw on some clean clothes and start walking to the park. I see Hayden on the swings. This feels too much like it did with Zoe... As I get closer I see she's wearing a dress, fuck that's hot. Then I see the roses.

They're not for you.

They're for whoever comes after you.

I gesture to the roses, "What are those for, your side chick?" I ask not trying to be funny but, she laughs. Why the fuck is this bitch laughing? She stops when she sees I don't find this situation funny. "Billie do you really think after the stupid shit we've been through that I'd cheat on you?" she asks.

At this point all rational thought is out the window with what I say next, "Probably." Her face drops and she grabs the roses, shoving them into my chest before speaking, "Have fun at your birthday party Billie, I'm going home." She walks past me leaving me dumbfounded.

Wait what.

Is that what she's been doing this whole time?

I fucked up.

Again.

I throw the roses as hard as I can, because I sure as hell don't deserve these. "Billie!" I hear my moms voice calling me. I turn around and see her waiting for me. She holds out her hand to guide me to a nearby building. I walk through the door and see all my friends and family, my favorite music playing in the background, and my favorite snacks. I look around and see large canvases lining the walls. The art looks familiar. It's haunting and I love it.

"It's all Hayden." my mom says. She did all of this for me, and she's not even here to appreciate the gratitude.

I run to the bathroom and brace my hands against the sink and just stare down at it trying to catch my breath and think. I hear the door open not caring too look up to see who it was. I should have. Arms snake around my waist and I close my eyes. "Are you ok cutie?" My eyes shoot open and I turn around to see a smiling Zoe.

Before I can do anything else she cups my face and kisses me. I shove her away, "Get the fuck away from me!" I shout. "What the fuck Bil?" I point a finger in her face, "You and I are done. Hayden is good for me and you're just... you're just toxic!" I shout. "I loved you. I loved you as my best friend, never anything more than that..." I finish. Tears well up in her eyes, "But you kissed me first, at that party." "Yes I did Zoe. I won't deny that, but I was still figuring myself out. I don't love you in the way that you love me. I'm sorry I can't give you that." I finish before leaving her alone in the bathroom.

*Zoe's POV*

If I can't have Billie, no one can.

a/n: oof