Some would call us toxic but we're all we had for most nights we were there for each other but me not knowing how to love myself led to the break up I still miss him. I mean everyone have relationship problems. I still have love for him but he's in a relationship
I will always love and support him he's was the first person I loved like actually loves understood me
I see that he stills like my post
I wait by my the phone just from him to call when he finally called he opened a wound I thought I closed
He opened back up a hurt I've never felt
When we broke up I thought I shut the door and locked it of our past,as I write this diary the memories come flooding back he broke down the door that had all my love for him in like a gust of wind without no warning
Everytime I think of him I crave his touch I miss the way he make loved to me through the night not having a care in the world who heard us
I remember when we first kissed me sitting in his car listening to music on a rainy day when he suddenly kissed me
But when I found out that he had a girlfriend just two months after we broke up that what broke me
See when I broke up with him I thought I locked all the 6 locks on the door to enter our memories but as I subconsciously unlocked 3 locks on the door to my heart trying to keep the memories away
I miss the times when we fucked like a wild animal
When we made love
Him making love to me and not caring about what anybody said about the noises.
I may have this bad bitch persona but actually I'm just A sad girl who's still heartbroken by a break up
As I played with his curly hair while we talked about our future together
we promised a 2020 when we announce that we're together and let the fans know about us
But guess what it never happened.
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As im pouring this wine to drinking away all my pain while writing this sad ass diary entry of how I still miss my former lover .
