Shooting with Matthew Espinosa + magcon

Wtf just happened

Till I wake up to matt shaking me. I hold my arms out indicating him to carry me. He smiles and does as so. He carries me bridal style all the way to our room. He drops me on the bed and gets on top of me. There is only one bed so I assume we get our own room. He starts kissing me, then my neck , then my collar bone. "Matt, I'm too tired." I say scared how how he's going to react, but he just nods and lays down in bed beside me. We get situated in bed. I set my head in matts neck. We both fall asleep. We don't have MAGCON for 3 more days.
I wake up and see that matt is awake on his phone. I'm starting to get nervous . I know I shouldn't be but I saw that he got 'plane girls number'
"Wanna take a shower with me?" I ask biting my lip and taking my tank top off. He nods and comes close to me. He kisses my lips lightly and pulls away.
I walk off to the bathroom swinging my hips.
I strip off my clothes and get in . Few minutes late matt comes in.( just saying that it is a big shower) he pushed me into the wall lightly and kissed me. "Wait.." I say he pulls away confused. "I saw you with that girl yesterday, there isn't anything going on right?" I say he looks at me weirdly then a light bulb clicked. "No, I'd never do that to you, it was a fan, I got her number and texted her once that's it." He says. I then push him in the wall and kiss his collar bone. He moans a bit which made me chuckle. I went up to his neck then I found his sweet spot and nibbled on it a bit. I went to his jawline, and that's when he grabbed my ass. I gasped and that's when he put his tongue in my mouth. It felt amazing. I pulled away and then shut the water off. He was looking at me straight in the eyes. "You don't have to Cara-" "matt I want you as much as you want me.." I got out and put a towel on. He was drying off and I walked in the room and saw that his phone was ringing. It was plane girl. I hit decline and went to the messages. They had been planning to meet up tonight and saying what they are going to do to each other. They were going to have sex. Before matt came out of the bathroom, I left the room in my towel and went to nash and cams room. They opened the door and were confused then I started to cry. They let me in. "Nash.." I said with my voice cracking. He ran over to me and hugged me. "I was right he hooked up with her..." I say.
"How do you know?"
"So... Matt and I were in the shower and we got out about to have our first time. But he was drying off so I went to the room and saw that she was calling. I declined and checked their messages. They were talking about what they were going to do to each other." I say balling my eyes out.
Nash held me in his arms and we pulled away only to get pulled into another one from Cameron. That's when the door knocked. No. I shake my head and went to the porch thing and looked out over NYC. And started to think. I was still in my towel. I don't have my camera or anything.
I just wanted go to sleep. So I went inside and saw Cams head peeked out the door. I think matt is out there. " she doesn't want to see you right now." Cam says
"What did I do?" He said stressed.
"Look at your phone matt, she found out, the plane girl called and saw what happened." Cam says shutting the door.
"Can I borrow a shirt and some boxers." I ask
"Yeah." Cam says.
I turned around and put the shirt on and then the boxers. I turned back around and both of them were looking at me. "Oh.. I should have just went to the bathroom. "There were two beds. I go over and lay down on one. Then nash says "looks like I get to sleep with you, cutie." He says taking his clothes off except for his boxers. I looked at his body and it was nice that's all I can say right now.
He got in bed with me and I got comfortable. I had my head on his chest and our legs were interwind. "You did not deserve that at all, you are amazing." He says then kissed my head. "You just made me feel 5x better nash." I say and kiss his cheek.
Cam gets in bed after he gets undressed. We turn on the tv and watched Hangover.
I felt better. I started snoozing off but I had my eyes closed and just listened to the TV. "I think she's asleep Cam." Nash says.
"Okay, let me ask you something. Do you like her?" Cam says."yeah... I feel so bad that she had to go through that I just knew that Matt was going to do something like that. He always just uses them." I thought he was a virgin.
Guess I got fooled. But al least I didn't go through the with having sex with him.
" just give her time. But I think matt really liked her." Cam says.
Then I finally fell asleep.
I woke up to talking. I looked around and saw Matt, Cam, and Nash. I just lay back down and put my face in the pillow and sigh loudly. I started to cry silently. I felt the bed dip and saw matt.
I got up and went to the other bed.
He sighs. I just don't want to be close to him.
He started to walk over to me. I got up and went to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror I look like I just got out of an apocalypse. I put water on my face and get all the make up off me. I put my hair in a messy bun. I walk out and see just matt. "I told them to leave so I can talk to you in private." He says. He looks like he had cried, but not as close as to how much I have. "No. I want to you to leave." I say sternly. " just let me explain." "No. Matt." He gets closer to means lifts my chin up. I don't look at him though I look down. "Listen, I lied- "DAMN RIGHT YOU LIED" I say I put my fingers on his chest and push him slightly. "I'm not leaving." "Yeah. You are!" I say loudly. I pushed him and he backed up 4 steps. He came fast over to me"WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE A BITCH. JUST LISTEN TO ME!" He says then i felt i burning sensation in my cheek. He just slapped me. My eyes started to water. I backed up but he came closer to me. He looked like he was about to cry. "Cara.. I'm sorry I didn't mean to, listen I love you Cara." He says coming closer to me. I ran to the bathroom and locked it. I was scared of him. He is just like my last boyfriend. I look in the mirror and had a big red mark on my face. I started crying my eyes out. "Cara open the door." He says sobbing." No matt, you are just like my old boyfriend, leave before I call the cops." I say. Then I hear the door shut moments later. I stand up and walk out to the room. I sit on the bed and just stare at the blank TV. 10 minutes later nash and cam come in. They look at me. Then they had shocked faces. "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR FACE?!" They both say at the same time running over to me. " Matt .. He .." My voice cracking then I started balling in Nashs arms. "Cam can you get my stuff out of my room... But don't talk to matt about it I don't want us to break you guys.." I say and he nods.
I lay back on the bed.
Nash lays right beside me and starts to cuddle into me. "Cara..I'm sorry I should have never left." "It's not like this is the first time it happened. " I say then noticing I just said that out loud. I can feel him looking at me. He turns my face so I'm looking at him . "Has he hit you before?" He asks. "No, not him, my ex."
I say and look to see Cameron.
Should I tell them, I mean we are pretty close now.
*** exactly what I told matt about my ex

"Wow..." The both say in at the same time. I had cried a bit. But not about Logan.. Matt.
I have no idea what to think.
"I know matt hurt you, but if never do that even if you slapped me a million times I'd never lay a finger on you." Nash says. "Your way too nice to Nash" I say.
"So you and matt didn't have sex right?" Cam asks
"Nope, and I'm glad I didn't." I say
"Yeah.. I mean you aren't a --" cam got interrupted by nash by nudging him "dude!" Nash says.
"Guys don't treat me any differently, I just want to forget the past okay?" I say laying down with Cameron laying next to me and hugging me.
By the end of the night nash and cam were asleep. I noticed that cam forgot y camera equipment so it's now or never. I go to my old room with matt. I knock on the door. "Go away" I hear matt yell sounding tired. Good thing I brought my key.
I opened the door to see matt just staring at the wall but crying. I go pick up my camera equipment. But as I turn around a matt was behind me. We just stood there awkwardly. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me not tight but not soft. "Cara I'm so sorry ." He says pulling away. He looked at my right cheek where he slapped me. He rubbing his pointer finger over the bruise lightly. "I can't believe I did that, listen I doubt you will take me back but just know that I love you." He says crying at the end. "Time." I say and walk to the door, I look back to see him staring where I was. I went up and kissed his cheek "night." I say and walk out.