I've been made promises my entire life but most people break their promises... like one of my dads friends promised that he would come back and he never did, my parents promise they are always be there for me and when I try to talk to them i feel scared and nervous and like they might get mad and sometimes they do, my Sister.. She promises to keep my secrets and be there for no matter what but... sometimes she tells my secrets and it hurts..., my friend once promised me she would be there for me no matter what through everything but she left me like everyone eventually does.. I have trust issues because I just don't know who to trust anymore with so many people telling me lies and one person's telling me one thing and another telling me another.. I need it to stop.. I need everything to stop... and it's hard because when i'm lied to i'm so gullible and I go back to the person because i believe the lies that come out of there mouth. All i want is someone to be honest with me. Everyone acts as if I'm this fragile thing that can't handle the truth but I can and they don't understand that the truth makes me stronger not weaker and people don't understand that yes it may hurt but I'll pick myself up and go on.. It may be a little harder than it sounds.. actually it's a lot harder than I make it seem.. it takes a while to get over something that you were promised. I once got promised by this guy i reallyyyyyyyy liked.. He promised that he would not hurt me again and that he was different.. but he wasn't he cheated on me with my best friend and it hurt a lot and I still to this day wonder what I did wrong. He has given me a "explanation" but it wasn't the right one or right way. Then there was my best friend. She dropped me out of nowhere and I was really hurt because once again I believed someone's promise and I ended up hurting myself more and more and I'm almost off the cliff with how much I can handle then there was my boy best friend... He left me because he thought i was talking about his girlfriend( the girl i was talking about before) and i wasn't because all i want is for her to be my best friend again... and it made me think about how he may have never cared about me or anything...or even meant it when he said he loved me and that he never even thought of me as even a friend just someone he can play with.. He lied to me.. I'm not gonna say what he lied about but he lied... actually multiple times. He- He's someone I always wanted in my life.. He was my best friend but now I can't go up to him and hug him or talk to him.. I was talking to my ex girlfriend and then he came up and I guess he asked her why she was talking to me.. It broke my heart that I could have possibly done something so bad to where he wants nothing to do with me.. Not even making eye contact. My best friend lied to me, she told me things that weren't true and I haven't fully forgiven her for it..
