Why
Why am I still on this fucking app
Why do I bother
Why do I bother dealing with people's problems when I can't help my own
Why
Why do I feel like I have to fix everyone's problems for them
WHY WHY
IF I NEVER HAD WATTPAD I WOULDNT HAVE TO DEAL WITH TELLING PEOPLE NOT TO KILL THEMSELVES
AT THIS POINT I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE
AND WHATEVER IVE SAID IM STARTING TO SECOND GUESS IT BECAUSE AT THIS POINT I SOUND LIKE A BROKEN RECORD TALKING PEOPLE OUT OF SUICDE THE 3 YEARS IVE BEEN ON THIS FUCKING APP
WHEN IT HAS GOTTEN TO A POINT YOUVE HAD TO TALK PEOPLE OUT OF SUICIDE 5 TIMES NOW WHEN DO YOU QUIT?!
YOU CANT BECAUSE THAT SHIT STAYS WITH YOU FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
YOU FEEL LIKE YOU CANT EVER LEAVE SOMEONE ALONE FOR PERIODS OF TIME
THE FEELING OF DREAD WHEN YOU SEE THEM POST SOMETHING OR TEXT YOU
BECAUSE NOW YOURE FUCKING TERROFIED TAHT THEYRE GONNA COME TO YOU AND SAY THEYRE GONNA FUCKING KILL THEMSELVES
AND YOU HAVE TO SIT THERE TRYING TO TALK THEM OUT OF IT WASTING YOUR TEEN YEARS AWAY
IM NOT EVEN ALLEGEABLE TO EVEN GIVE ADVICE IM NOT A THERAPIST BUT ITS NOT LIKE I CAN STOP NOW
IM TOO SCARED TO EVEN HAVE TIME TO MYSELF AT THIS POUNT BECAUSE IM TERRIFIED OF THE THOUGHT OF THE PEOPLE IVE TALKED TO FUCKING DYING
but what can I do
Nothing can't have time to myself
I can't leave people Alone
And I can't even trust me or them with doing something stupid
Life
Jesus fucking Christ almighty.
