Broken

1. mornings

It's 5:30 am in the morning. The alarm clock is still buzzing. With a quiet yawn Ophelia wakes up. It was quite a struggle to fall asleep for her. It took her 1-2 hours to fall asleep but to wake up short after all that struggle was quite bothersome. With a push, Ophelia finally puts off her alarm. With a really quiet yawn she tries to wake up. She lives only 30 minutes away from school and school starts at 8 o clock. Ophelia would rather wake up a bit later than at 5:30 in the morning but she has a sister that she is taking care of. Her sister, June, is 5 years old and has to go to kindergarten. Ophelia always prepares breakfast and lunch for June.
She doesn't really eat anything in the morning. A cup of coffee in the morning helps her feel full and in control. No one beside her prepares anything to eat for breakfast. Her mother and father are rarely at home so she takes care of June.

„Do we have jam at home?" She murmurs while trying to get up. „How long has it been since I last slept peacefully " she asks herself on the way to the bathroom.

After washing her face she goes to the kitchen, prepares breakfast for her sister and brews some coffee. Brushing her teeth before eating or drinking something makes it taste disgusting. After taking a sip out of her coffee ,she goes to wake her sister up.

„June, Juneee. Wake up sleepy head~"sang Ophelia with a joyful yet calm voice. It amused her how June slept peacefully. Her tiny thumb in her mouth, as if she was still 2 with no care what surrounds her. Still she had to wake her up.

„Junee, I made pancakesss. Wake up~ ". June turned over and saw her big sister, Ophelia above her.

„Yayyyy pancakes" shouted June. The energy of her sister sometimes overwhelmed her. June ran to the kitchen as fast as if she was sonic the hedgehog. Ophelia caught up to her, took her in her arms.

„ first we wash our face you little sonic" stated Ophelia, while tickling the heck out of June. After all that physical activity, Ophelia could finally drink her cup of coffee. One cup didn't do the job so she drank another one. Normally 2 teaspoons of coffee grinds was the maximum in the instructions. Ignoring the instructions was quite normal for her because she always put 4-5 teaspoons or more to make her coffee. The bitterness, which she liked, woke her up.

„Big swister? Where is mommy and daddy ?" Asked June innocently. The poor little girl was too young to understand the situation so Ophelia always lied, that her parents went to buy some groceries. Their parents were always drunk and fought a lot. June didn't understand the concept of abuse and always thought that her parents were only talking loud. It sometimes scared her but her big sister, Ophelia, was always for her there and kept her mind somewhere else.

After getting ready, Ophelia left her sister in kindergarten and went straight to school. Sometimes she wondered if she should just run away. It always clogged her head. The thoughts always end with don't be a selfish bitch, what will happen to June ?

„OPHELIAAAA" yelled a familiar voice. It's Anna from school. „thanks for waiting Ophelia"she tells her out of breath.
„did you see the new episode from xshow? It was freaking awesome, did you see ..." and now Anna was in her world. Ophelia doesn't really have the time for watching movies. It tires her out putting a fake smile. Ophelia just listens. She doesn't really mind it. She listens to Anna till they get to school.

„see you later Ophelia " said Anna to Ophelia with a smirk on her face. Anna knows Ophelia since freshman year. They aren't in the same classroom anymore because Anna failed her classes on purpose and repeated the year. She repeated it so she could be with her boyfriend. Ophelia didn't understand why she did that for a boy but it wasn't her place to judge someone.

Everyone knew Ophelia as the „perfect" girl. She had outstanding grades, helped many with their studies or in other topics, some were really jealous of her looks because she was a natural beauty with no make up and her body was for some a dream body. Many boys wanted her but she always turned them down. There were much more beautiful girls in her school than her. Her niceness shined the most. She never yelled or was grumpy or felt any kind of emotion other than joy. But unfortunately that was only an act which she put so she wouldn't have to open herself up to other people. They didn't know that starving resulted to this body or that she didn't wear any makeup because she never had time for herself because she worked part time. As much as she wanted to be left alone, that wasn't sadly an option.

First lesson was math. The classroom was really loud even though the teacher was already here. The teacher knew that the classroom wouldn't quiet down even if he were to rip his throat so he only enjoyed the cries of his students.  Ophelia sat behind because of the seat arrangement. It was the best thing that could ever happen to her. Sleeping was not in her schedule so learning something new was her only choice. Math was really easy for her. All that practice in middle school basically helped her get through all of this with A's and A+'s. She mostly helped others in the lesson and if that wasn't an option, she got lost in her thoughts till the bell rang.

After all the lessons it was finally break time. Everyone else went to their own friend groups so she was left all alone.Her favorite spot was under the tree far away from the others. She enjoyed the silence. The birds singing and the wind brushing her skin. The fresh breeze made her very sleepy. Her mind finally calming down, finally being able to breath made her peaceful. Soon after closing her eyes, she fell asleep.