From: Hazel
Hey ! May practice ba kayo after class ?
Can I have your time ? May sasabihin ako.
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When people is to receive such a text from his girlfriend like this, two things come in to mind.
First, good news.
Second, bad news.
Pero ako, whenever sasabihin niya na may sasabihin siya, gusto ko magbingi-bingihan. Kasi natatakot ako na baka ang sabihin niya ay ang mga salitang ayokong marinig.
Kaya rather thinking a goodnews, I always think of the worst news.
For me its, think of the worst, wish for the best.
I am a rebound, by choice.
Kaya normal lang siguro na kabahan ako kapag may sasabihin siya with that mood.
I just can take seeing the girl I so love cry and get hurt over and over again for having an unrequited love.
I know how unbearable it is to have an unrequited love. Cause me my self is currently in that state.
Kaya kahit alam ko na kalokohan, na imposibleng magkagusto siya sa akin, nagtapat pa din ako at kinombinsi siya na gamitin ako para maka-get over.
And unexpectedly, she agreed.
For more than a year, we've been a normal couple.
We did everything a normal couple will do.
And for more than a year also, I'd always been afraid and running away from the fact that this day will surely come.
Pero ngayon, mukhang wala na talaga 'kong choice kung hindi harapin ang katotohanang ito.
The truth is, I've been always prepared for this day, I was just always denying it to myself.
To: Hazel
Oo eh, magti-text na lang ako after namin.
Magkita tayo.
Thank god may rehearsal kami, kahit papano may oras pa ako para ihanda ang sarili ko sa greatest fear at biggest blow na kakaharapin ko mamaya.
Breaking up really is scary, specially kung alam mo na na 'yon nga ang mangyayari.
To: Hazel
Yo ! We're done.
Dito ko sa park, kung makakapunta ka pa, I'll be waiting.
After a minute ...
~~Turururu~~
From: Hazel
I'm coming..
