My World it Crash and Burns

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" I don't know what to do anymore"
 
    I don't know what to do anymore. I want to scream and cry untill I lose my voice, untill I run out of tears. But my mind won't let me.
   All of my friends are gone, and if they don't want to text/talk first then neither will I... That's just going to bother them.
   But I need them so badly. I miss them. But they don't understand. They don't understand how sad I am. How much I want to scream and just break something.
  I try to tell my parents how i feel but I just can't and I don't even know why. But I need to. Everyday it's worse. Everyday something happens and it. Just. Gets. Worse.
    I can't seem to do anything right, but I'm trying but no one seems to see that.
     I don't want to be here. I want to be... Somewhere else, were no body knows me or my name. Where people take me seriously. Where they don't think I'm a joke, a mess a screw up, a weirdo.
I don't want to eat, but I do, I try to sleep but sometimes I don't.
I wish I was happy but I'm not.

I want to die but I just won't.

So I guess I'll have to live in this world, my world as it Crash and Burns