My World it Crash and Burns

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Oh, I thought you would've left by now...

I'm sad. But I smile.
That's my life.
I'm tired, I'm so tired. Of doing things wrong. Of everything going bad. I'm tired of living.
   I've tried and I've tried and I've tried to be happy. I write in my Stuff Jornal, I talk to my dog, I tried to tell my friends.
  I blast music through my Headphones daily. I draw, I read, I write, but nothing seems to get my mind off the monsters in my head.
   I can't drown my demons 'cause they know how to swim
   I joke, and laugh and play around because it makes me happy to see you all smile. Even if you hate me.

   I'm sad. I'm so incredibly sad. But I smile. I smile for you, for them, for everyone.
   That's my life.

   It's okay tho. I cry during the night so I can smile during the day.
I'll be sad while my World Cash and Burns.