Loves Sucks

Love Sucks

  Love fucking sucks. Plain as shit. There isn't anything you can do to stop it, or even pick who it is. It's always inconvenient. Not that I've ever been great with my emotions or anything. I will tell you it sucks when you actually try to open up and get rejected. Not that I expect anyone to automatically accept my feelings. It's probably strange seeing me vulnerable in the first place. So I fucking get it, but it doesn't hurt any less.

  I may not look like it, but I'm an emotional person. I'm just good at hiding it. I may be a little too good at too. It's hard to get close to anyone. Unless they are really persistent like Shitty Hair. He's honestly probably one of only true friends. I don't know why he tries so hard, but I guess whatever floats his boat. But don't get me started on that fucking nerd. There's just something about him that I just can't get over. I can't put my finger on it. He's really nice and tries to be my friend, but he just makes me feel weak. I know that I'm so much fucking stronger than he is, but I still feel like I'm inferior. I don't quite know how to explain it. It's probably not healthy for me to feel that way, but I'm trying.

  It's already hard for me to open up as a friend, but when you throw any feelings of love into the mix it just gets so much more fucked up. I already come off as an ass and I know that I do. I don't know how to bring up my feelings without people making a big deal about it. The last thing I want is that fucking acid or invisible bitch hearing me. They don't fucking shut up. They would have a fucking field day if they heard I actually liked someone. That's one reason I don't ever say anything. And that has caused me some pain. I watched my first crush start to date the person I possibly dislike the most. That fucking nerd. I probably should've known that was going to happen anyway. They way they were always hanging out, and how they always fucking looked at each other. I shouldn't be too upset. I was to fucking afraid to tell her how I felt. I know Pink Cheeks probably wouldn't have felt the same, but it kills me that I didn't even tell her. Now she's with the nerd, and it does kind of fucking hurt. But that was my own fault. I eventually got over her; however it did take some time. I finally moved on.

  Eventually, I started to fall for someone else. This was different. I fell hard. There was something about her that I couldn't quite put my finger on. I wasn't sure what about her drew me in so much. But I knew that I couldn't make the same mistake I made with Pink Cheeks. I had to tell her. Not that it would make a difference.

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  "Alright class, I'm letting you out early so you can work with your partners one last time before your presentations tomorrow. Make sure to use your time wisely!" Midnight said as she dismissed the class.

  "Hell yeah!" Ashido fist bumped the air.

  The rest of the class broke out into cheers as they all got their stuff together preparing to leave for the day. I roll my eyes at everyone. They would be excited to leave, because I know for sure they aren't going to work on their presentations. They are just going to go fuck around as usual. I'm not gonna lie though, I'm a little excited to have some extra time to work with my partner on our presentation. Not that we need anymore time to work on it. But I know how she is with school work. She's a perfectionist. A beautiful perfectionist. I get up and turn around to the back of the classroom to see the epitome of beauty still sitting at her desk finishing up some notes she was taking. I can't help a small smile form on my face. It left as quickly as it came when I saw that Icy Hot bastard turn and say something to her. She laughed. Fuck. I have to do something.

  "Yo, Ponytail!" I bellowed as I walked to her desk. "Do you want to go over our presentation just to make sure we have everything we need. I figured we'd go ahead and get this presentation over with so we don't have to worry about it anymore."

  "Oh of course. I would love to!" Yaoyorozu bounced her head as she spoke.

  She's so fucking gorgeous.