The Spaces in Between

Where did you go?

"I don't want to take care of you Ben, I want to know why—," you tilted your head down as a single tear left your cheek. You were holding back as much as you could, the lump in your throat swelled up. There was something about him that promised you better. You felt it in your bones, "why did you do what you did, and then you left. You're here but you're not here. I just want an answer and I'll leave you alone." The tears were still making their way out.

"You want a reason for what? I fucked you and now you want me to be your Jedi boyfriend?" His voice grew louder and more aggressive, his mouth pierced as he bit his tongue.

"We were supposed to do this together! What changed. Why are you so angry now, what did I do to turn myself into just someone you fucked?" Your voice was loud but shaky. He didn't look you in your eyes once.

"Together? Do what together?" He moved his way over to you, standing a foot from your body. Your head tilted down in shame. He was still looking away from you.

He didn't care about you. Just like nobody had before.

Suddenly his head turned to face yours. His stature had pivoted down to relaxed and his eyes fixated on yours.

"The people who left you here. It wasn't their choice. You know that." His voice was quieter, almost like he was trying to comfort you.

"You have a choice, and you're choosing to do exactly what they did." Your eyes met with his. Your entire body wanted to wrap around his and kiss him again. In a week you had forgotten how gentle yet lively his brown eyes were. Your heart burned again.

To your surprise he paused for a moment, watching your eyes intently. His hands rose and grasped your cheeks.

"I don't like it when you cry. Please.." his index finger brushed away a tear that escaped your eye. His voice grew more and more consolable. His hands made their way down to your shoulders, he pulled you into a firm hug. He was shaking. You felt his breath pillage through your hair. You were motionless, puddy where you stood.

"What are we doing Ben.. what do you want from me?" You left his grasp and wiped the tear stains from your face.

"I want.." a slight smile appeared on his face. Your heart lit up to see him give any glimpse of exuberance. "I want you to be my Jedi girlfriend." He let out a tiny chuckle. You loved his laugh more than anything. It didn't happen often, but when it did, it was the most comforting sound in the galaxy.

You looked up at him in apprehension. "But I thought I was someone you just fucked?" You were confused. You had never been in a relationship before.

"Made love to. You're just someone I made love to. That's how it works (y/n). Except I keep making love to you, and stop making an ass out of myself." His hand slowly slipped into yours and held it to his chest. His lips formed into a slight smirk.

"How.. How do we even do this Ben?" You were sure you were going to explode with joy. But fear also struck your heart in the same way.

"Well.." he pulled you into a tight hug. You were only tall enough to rest your head on his chest. His heart beat was fast, but seemingly slowing down, "first I tell you how beautiful you are every day. Then I thank the gods for their generosity. Then every single day and night I touch you," his hands began to graze the nape of your neck, "and you touch me." His chin rested down on your head.

"Ben—."

"Then I lay you down, everyday. I untie your robes, and I kiss every inch of your skin," his head leaned down, his black waves brushed against your lips. He began to kiss down your neck slowly. He spoke against your skin, "then I pull off your panties. Nice and slow..." his hand reached to yours and guided it to the bulge peaking out of his trousers. Your heart beat grew faster. You forgot just how big it was. You run your fingers along his asset. His lips dragged across your neck.

"Ben.. I-." your nerves were kicking in.

"And finally.." he pulled away from the crevasse of your neck leaving you with goosebumps. You bit your lip and closed your eyes knowing what came next.

He placed his finger underneath your chin, leaving you to open your eyes into his. Your breath was staggered, but he looked confident. He paused for a brief moment as his eyes made their way down to your lips and back up to your face. His face grew more serious and his eyes focused on yours.

"We fall in love."