Short Stories

When I Had The Chance

The moment you open your eyes in the morning and realized that you're in the present and wouldn't be able to go back in the past is one of the most regretful days of my life. 

What if I learned how to forgive?

What if I gave them another chance?

What if I took the opportunity to be with them?

What if I told them I love them?

Would I be in this regretful situation that I can't change? Or things will turn out great and regrets wouldn't be with me?

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I opened my eyes when the sun's light hit my face through my open window. I stood up and look at the sky and wonder, how will I be able to change and turn back time?

But as much as I think of it, I wouldn't be able to. No one will be able to. Because the moment we wake up, we're living minutes we will never get back, we are breathing the air we will never breath again. And sadly we wouldn't be able to make someone alive again.

There are a lot of things humans can do and can't do. And this things teaches us alot of lessons and these lessons are priceless and cannot be repeated, it's Time and Life. 

Flashback 

"Hey Andrea, how are you? I missed you. It's been a week since I saw you" Brian greeted and hug me as if there's no tommorow. 

"Yeah, yeah, I miss you too" I said between the hug and pushed him slightly away from me for I don't like the way the other girls look at me. "I'm doing great, I just have to pass these requirements that I missed" I said referring to the long blue envelope that I'm holding. 

"Can I go with you?" He asked and I just nodded for I know that he'll just annoy me if I won't let him. It's kinda bit awkward dahil nga nagkita na ulit kami after a week. Brian's my boy bestfriend for as long as I can remember. He's the type of person who would annoy you until you started laughing. Makes your bad days a good one. And will always be there through ups and downs. 

He's the one who helped me catch up with the activities that I missed last week when my father died on a car accident. And I wasn't even able to hug and say that I forgive and love him. I'm a daddy's girl when I was still a kid but as I grew up and had knowledge about situations. I saw him kissing another woman without mom knowing. After that day my love for my father became hatred and I promised myself that I wouldn't love someone like him. 

The day before he died, he asked me and mom to have dinner with him. But I told my mother that I wouldn't be able to go with her for I have a lot of more important things to do than meeting him. My mother knew everything and I don't understand why she was able to forgive him that easily.

When my mother told me that he wasn't able to survive. I didn't know what to react, what to feel and what to do. I stood in front of the emergency room with my mind blank, my tears flowing into my cheeks and regrets. 

"When me and your father had dinner. He told me that he's so disappointed and regretful to all the things that he did. He told me that he wanted to make it up to us. Gusto niyang bumawi at humungi ng tawad sayo anak." My mother said as tears continue to fall down my cheeks. "If you're asking why I was able to forgive him, it's because we're just humans, we're very sinful, we sometimes get tired, lonely and bored. But at the end of the day, God is there to guide, love and forgive us. Sino ba tayo para hindi magpatawad?" She continued and I stayed silent. 

"Sometimes, loving someone means forgiving his or her sins. Accepting his or her flaws. Understanding his or her opinions. Guide him or her to the right path. And teach him or her how to love truly" she continued and I ended up crying so hard. "He may have cheated on me but that doesn't mean that I don't love him anymore. A person may hurt us over and over but always remember that when a person truly loves someone, he or she will be able to forgive him or her, maybe not now but on the right time" and with that I hugged her and whispered "I Love You dad..." 

"Hey! We're here" sambit niya na nagpa balik saakin sa katinuan. Nasa faculty na pala kami. Am I that preoccupied at hindi ko namalayan na nandito na pala kami.

2 hours later 

"Andrea, can you go with me tomorrow?" He asked me habang nagbabasa ako ng paborito kong libro. 

"Saan?" I asked but he just winked at me. Problema nito??

"Saan nga? Paano ako sasama kung hindi ko naman alam kung saan?" I said as I close my book at nadatnan ko siyang nakatutok sa akin. 

"Somewhere you don't know" he said at napakunot naman ako ng noo. Seriously, manghuhula na ba ako ngayon? He really is very irritating at times. 

"Do you trust me?" He seriously asked. 

"Yes, I do trust you" I said looking straight into his eyes. 

"Then there will be no problem" he said and immediately left me confused. 

3 weeks later 

It's been 3 weeks since I last saw him. On the day he asked me to go with him was one of the worst decisions I made. 

The night before that day. I planned on telling him how much I love him, of how sure I am of my feelings for him. But to my surprise, he introduced me to his girlfriend. And after that day. I regretted on not telling him sooner. 

He had feelings for me since then. But I pushed him away and told him that we're better as bestfriends because I thought I wouldn't fall for him but I was wrong. I believed that I only love him as a friend but I ended up falling for him. 

For now, I'm happy and thankful for I have chosen a path that I know I will never ever regret why I have chosen it. Being able to published my own book is one of the best memories that I'll keep forever. 

In life we will always have a lot of trials, pains and regrets. But to be able to open our eyes and live, is one way to make a move and do the things we weren't able to do in the past. Because we will never know when our time would stop, when our life ends and when we will have the chance. 

I'm Andrea Sy and this is my story.