While You Are Here

Chapter 1: Focused

Sameea mind began to drift off to other things that seems to be hunting her anxiety and mind at night. Finding a internship with a not so decent GPA has been a big blow to her ego and self-esteem; feeling like she wasn't even knowledgeable enough to even get one single internship.

"SEMEEA!" yelled by my best friend Jariah

"WHAT?" Sameea yelled back

"What got you so lost that you couldn't hear me talking to you" Jariah responded back

Sameea just dismissed her by rolling her eyes and sigh before responding back " One word..internships". Knowing class had just ended; getting up from her desk and walking out the class with her bookbag draping over her shoulder. Jariah followed behind her giving her encouraging words to calm Semeea anxiety and stress on really trying to find a internship in time for the summer.

After 10 minutes of walking to her car and saying her goodbyes to her best friend. Sameea cruck up her car and began to proceed to drive home. While on her drive home, she stopped and got something to eat since almost everyday she would starve herself until after all her classes were over.

Finally making it to her off-campus apartment, she proceeded to unlock her front door and enter her little one-bedroom apartment. She lowkey hated the apartment because of all the stuff she had when moving into the tiny apartment. She just had too much shit that had nowhere to go.

Starting to unwind in the comfort of her home, she began to tend to any assignments she didn't finish or start before the due date. While two hours into her little homework session she ended up receiving an email that caught her attention since it was showing her the information on a marketing internship opportunity that was being present in NYC.

After 3 minutes of reading the information attached to the email, Semeea began to fill out the internship and afterwards went back to finishing her assignments. 30 minutes had past and Semeea was official done with all her assignments due for the week. Feeling proud of her accomplishments, she began to 'rollup'.

Reaching for her lighter, she begin to pull on the stress reliever that stuck out in between her pointer and middle finger. Slowing inhaling the gas that was being burnt, she began to close her eyes and meditate repeating in her mind the phrase 'Inhale positivity, exhale anxiety', she said this to her self in plenty of hardships she has endured in her life. Just last month in January at the beginning of her spring semester she had received bad news that was currently still messing with her calm mental state of mind. Dealing with having to go home after hearing the sad news that her last living grandparent has just passed away.

Semeea was just now getting back to her regular routine, drifting back into reality she began to giggle know that she was indeed 'high as hell'. Feeling the good tingle that her high gave her, she began singing out loud.

"Early in the morning

She's running through my mind again

Girl, you got me wondering

If we should be more than friendsDo you wanna be?
Do you wanna be?
Do you wanna be?
Would you wanna be my girl? (Girl)"

Semeea began vibin' to the song so much, she didn't even realize she had gotten off her couch and was swang'n back and forward while continuing to let her voice to heard. By the end of the song she as so into the music she began at how much she just really enjoying the music.

After a few stalling minutes of listening and singing along to her playlist of all her favorite music artists she began to prep for her shower. Which included her washing her face and setting out her night pjs.

Walking back into her bathroom she began to take off her clothes and proceeded to enter the hot steaming shower. After stepping in the hot enclosed area, Semeea began to feel all of negative thoughts fade away. Breathing in slowly as she began to relax and think about about the internship she had applied for. She made a silent prayer, praying over the internship hoping that everything would work in her favor and she would get the internship.

(Two weeks pass by)

Semeea went rushing away from the student parking lot after parking her car in the lot by the school's gym. Trying to make it to her first class of the day which was at 1pm and it was now 12:45pm. She was began power walking bouncing from the music that was playing through her airpods.

Growing up, Semeea alway felt as though she was invisible because no guy has ever seem to be interested in her. Yeah, there were a couple of guys she had dealt with since coming to college but now in her current love life the love was non-existing  and she was going into her 2nd semester of her junior year. She wasn't naive by any means when thinking that every guy she would 'talk' to would be a 'love' interest, to be honest some were just a casual distraction on not having to be alone. Lately she has been focused on her academics but there was this one guy in her seminar that would caught her eye.

Finally, reaching her class in the small auditorium and taking her seat in between both of her girls Kaynia and Jariah. Taking in a few deep breaths to get her heart to go back to normal rhythm, she began to speak "Sooo... I applied for some more internships for this summer! There was this one internship that I pray that I get in NYC"

"Girl that's good bu--" Kaynia replied while getting out her computer and processing to apply for more internships as well 

"THE HELL YOU WANNA GO ALL THE  WAY TO NEW YORK FAH!?!" Jariah said cutting off Kaynia from finishing her sentence, mean mugging her best friend who gave her a stank look for her sudden outburst

"BECAUSE--" shrugging her shoulder Semeea began to speak again " It will give me the opportunity to not only network while I'm up there but to also spend time with my Aunt Toni who is my dad's sister" 

Semeea started to think about her Auntie, she never in her life really got to really with her Aunt Toni because growing up she was the only sibling out of her father's siblings to stay far away from the rest of the family. Semeea still managed to have a great relationship with her Aunt. But with the opportunity hopefully introducing itself made Semeea think about taking that time to bond with her Aunt and live it up in NYC for the summer.

Jariah began to speak again before the professor began his lesson for the day, "That's good and all but being all the way up there will have me missing you". Semeea started giggling at her dramatic ass friend

From the she see the man of the hour, the guy who always catches her attention as soon as he walks in the class. He stood 6'7 having to bend just a little even enter the quiet room as everyone got settled into their spots in the small auditorium. She felt as if the home world was going in slow motion as he began to catch her gazing glare directed his way. 

Damn, she didn't know this man name nor WHERE TF HE HAS BEEN HIDING THESE LAST THREE YEARS?!?!!!

 Quickly turning her attention to the voice of her professor greeting the class before talking about today's class session.

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Y'all, Im BACK !

I am so thankful from the current inspiration from reading alot of good ass Michael B. Jordan fictions. That alone has inspired me to began writing again.. so excited to be back inspired to begin writing again.

This story is based are me be being the main character just because I didn't wanna go through which celebrity/instagram model would fit best with this character. Plus the story in based on some similars in my real life (if y'all cared about that lol **shrug**)