Blue Exorcist AU | If Rin Had Depression (BEING REWRITTEN ON AO3)

Darkness

Yukio's POV

It's been two weeks since Rin was admitted to the hospital. No sign of him waking up. He may never open those sparkly, blue eyes ever again.

I sit in my room, surrounded by clutter. Clothes, pictures, dirty dishes... everything that I need to keep my body alive is in this room. But my mind is dead. Gone. It's never going to revive. It died with my brother.

For two weeks I've skipped teaching. I haven't taken up any jobs. I've only gone outside to get more food. It's like I'm living in a daze, unsure of what's real and what's not. I can remember the time I stepped on a nail a week ago, but I can't even remember is I took a shower or not today. I have no sense of time. With nobody around anymore, I'm all alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.Alone. Alone. Alone.

Bon's POV

Since what happened with Rin, classes have resumed. However, Okumura Sensei is nowhere to be found. We've had a substitute since the first day back.

The thing that bothers me the most out of this horrible situation, is the way everyone else is acting. They all act like nothing even happened in the first place. Like Rin was never...

Even Shiemi! She's still shy and soft-spoken, but she's started to interact a lot more with the class since Rin. Koneko and Shima have gone back to their goofball selves. Izumo is still a bitch, but a bitch that likes to hang out with everyone.

Everyone has already moved on. So why can't I? Every time I think of Rin, my heart burns. It burns with sadness, anger, and... love. Not like friend love like I have for Koneko and Shima, but something more.

I'm scared. I mean, it is against the Bible to like other men. I've known this since I was little. It has been drilled into my head. And besides, he's Satan's son! Although, I guess that means little in who he really is.

He's just too kind, caring, and puts others first. And that's not even mentioning how silky his blue-black hair is, how shiny his ocean eyes can become when he talks about something he loves, or how his tail wags when he gets excited.

I need to stop. He's in the hospital, and I'm thinking about romantic feelings for him! I just need to focus on praying for him to get better. I need him to get better. He needs to get better.

Rin's POV

"C'mon, Rin!" I hear Yukio call out to me.

The snow blinds me, the sunlight reflecting harshly.

Where the hell am I?

Ugh I know. Another short chapter. But I got hit with inspo before school, so I thought I'd write. I hope you all enjoy!!