Broken and Beautiful

Chapter One: Returning home!

Jessica's Prov:

There's no way I'm doing this. How could I be so stupid? How could I be so blind? How could I not see what was right in front of me? How did my life turn upside down out of nowhere?

Oh I'll tell you how! Apparently even when you give a guy everything you have, down to moving away from your home town. It is still not enough. Before you just assume things it's not like we were in a long distance relationship and I decided to leave my home town to chase after some guy. We were in high school, were were inseparable, we were in love. Or so I thought we were.

I won't bore you with all the details of our love story, or how it tragically ended. All I will say is I always said I would be with someone no matter what happened, but not if they cheated! As Meat Loaf said, "I will do anything for love, but I won't do that!" So hear I am, pulling into my parents drive way, after not seeing them for years.

I shut the car off and just sat there looking at the home I grew up in. I couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief, I already felt better just seeing the house. Then instantly my anxiety started to kick in, and the fact that I haven't seen my family in person for over two years really hit home. I mean we called, and facetimed each other all the time. But I never made an effort to actually come back down and see them. I was so wrapped up in my future with Tanner, I never truly made the time to come down to see them.

It made me feel horrible. I honestly didn't know what to do. I just sat in my car and looked at the home I grew up in. It was like I was frozen, I wanted to unbuckle, I wanted to walk in and say I'm home like I did a million times before. But the idea of even getting out of the car gave me a mini panic attack. I looked at the home, and considered just backing away and not going in. I mean they knew I was coming back, but now that I was here it seemed like I honestly couldn't face them. 

I heard a car pull up behind me. I looked behind me and watched Penelope get out of the car. My heart started to beat a thousand times faster. I haven't seen her since we fought right before I left home and moved away with Tanner. I was truly fucked now, because either way I had to deal with something I truly didn't want to deal with. Before I had a chance to do anything my passenger side door opened and Penelope sat down next to me. 

She didn't say anything. She just looked ahead, I honestly didn't know what to do. I expected her to yell at me. I expected her to give me hell for not listening to her. I expected her to truly hate me and to never want to see me again. I didn't expect to to just sit there. 

"Penelope...."

"No." She responded as she continued to look ahead. No? No what? She took a deep breath and sighed. She turned to look at for the first time, and I seen that she had tears in here eyes. My heart broke from seeing this and all I wanted to do was pull her in and tell her how sorry I was. "I missed you so much."

I couldn't stop myself. I unbuckled and wrapped my arms around her. She cried into my shoulder and I couldn't help but tear up myself. We just sat there and cried in silence for a moment. I pulled back to look at her. 

"Pen..."

"No you don't need to say it. I know, and the best part about having a wife, is that she will truly always be there for you." She explained to me with a small smile. It broke my heart even more. We had been best friends since we were 5 years old. Middle school is when we got engaged and high school we got married. Obviously we aren't legally or truly married. But it meant something to us. 

I knew she truly didn't want to talk about this now. But I did have to apologize to her at some point, now was just not the time in her eyes. That's what I love about her, she's always putting me feeling first, just like I do with her.