To
Author,
It started from the first day I again started talking to him . Yes , it wasn't in a friendly manner but out of respect .
That day he told me , "live with him." I said , " no...it was ..,"
It ended till that , didn't go further for he walked away.
From that day a silent treatment started , but it's continuous more like a perennial water body . It is going on even now .
My friends said , "try again."
" I will talk to him. "
" Waitt i will see."
Yes , sure maybe all of you are thinking that they are giving hope .
Unfortunately , the irony was that those words were dry . They didn't speak for itself . It was more like an obligation that they comforted me .
Days later , i received a message . Excited , i thought about hearing something good.
But no, he wrote imagining me as someone i was not , i could never be .
I wanted to say what all things he had done to me but i didn't , afraid that it would the same reason for breaking up a relationship as the previous one .
Then i realised , who am i convincing ? I well knew the thing that he didn't share every thing with me like i did .
As for now ... it's the same ,
he never wanted to know .
So i stopped ....like what i did in my childhood , i shut myself up from my surroundings .
He said , " who ? You ? Crying ?"
Yes . I have a heart too . It feels heavy too .
I am human too . Like you .
I am someone who respects other people and just because of a simple talk , i lost someone . He trusted me ...yea i did . I am sure .
But now? Not now.
Yes he did bad to him .
But to me , he did worse . He is the one for whom i couldn't make any friends . Because of whom i am cold . But he wasn't aware of that .
Just because i am silent , just because i come as strong doesn't mean we don't have a heart . Doesn't mean we don't have loved ones .
Circumstances make us strong.
Mentally .
But the heart .
Who does it listen to?
The same person who smiles ...is the same person who weeps , when no one is around.
Importantly , it felt like a burden . I myself felt like a burden . I have my exams . And in this i am urging my friends to give me advices .
Surely , they can't say no but the comforting words didi comfort me , rather made me feel like a complete burden .
Love,
Author.
