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Louis x reader-Insecure

Requested by: 4208546a
WARNING: Mentions of Depression, Self-hate, and Anorexia do not read if you are easily triggered.
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"Hey (Y/N), maybe if you ate less, then guys would finally find you attractive," one of your 'friends' from the group said.

"Yeah (Y/N), from my point of view, I can already see you turning into a whale," another commented, laughing out loud, but all you did was go along with it. You were always a lonely person, well ever since you moved from your old school and all you wanted was to fit in, but for some reason, you never could. You've always felt so alone in this dry and miserable world.

Although being made fun of your weight was nothing new, even your parents would degrade you about it and compare you to others, and it cuts you deeply. They were the reason why you hardly ate, and you've gotten accustomed to it. You missed eating, but you always told yourself that if you did start eating again, then you would look disgusting to everyone in your surrounding areas, and that's not what you want.

When you excuse yourself from your group of 'friends' you go directly to your dorm and throw up the contents of your stomach in the toilet. You then change into something baggy. When you took off your uniform, you look at yourself in the mirror; your (color/fur) looked stiff and was losing its natural color, your cheeks are getting hollow, and your bones are almost visible, but your body still managed to fight for you to live. You loathe your body wishing that you could eat, but ever since the insults and the shaming began, you would lose your appetite.

You hear a knock at the door which made you quickly put on your clothes and rush to the door, when you open it you see Louis. Confusion was written all over your face wondering why he was here in front of you.

"(Y/N), what happened? You missed our date...again," He said as he stepped into your dorm.

Now ever since you were transferred to Cherryton Academy, you never really had any friends, and back at your old school, you were always severely bullied; that's what caused you to suffer, and you want it all to stop but then came Louis in your life he had turned your life upside down. The administrator had thought that I'd be an excellent idea to have Louis show you around the school, and the moment you both came upon each other, it was as if you were finally free and safe.

Although there was this one thing, you wanted to keep Louis from knowing, and that was your disorder. You were afraid of what he'd think if he found out, would he be disgusted? Angry? Or worse...leave you? You wouldn't blame you if Louis left, they always do.

"I'm sorry, Louis, I know you were looking forward to our date, but...I had some things to do...look, I think it's best if you leave," you say, averting your eyes from meeting his.

He grabbed your chin, forcing him to look up at him; you loved his eyes; they always light up when he sees you and when you are both together, he shows you a part of him that he hides from everyone, including his father.

However, you are sometimes able to catch a deep longing in his brown eyes; the looks he gives you make you not want ever leave him.

"(Y/N), I'm not leaving, you're acting as if I don't know when you're hiding something from me." you wanted to tell him you really did but were too afraid that he'd leave you if he found out about what you were doing to yourself.

You then felt him embrace you tightly, "Please tell me what's wrong you've been distant lately...I deeply care about you (Y/N)" your heart was now pounding when you heard those words come out of his mouth, but you had to push him away before you both get hurt.

"Louis, I care about you too...but we can't-," you then felt an intense pain in the abdomen, pulling away from him and stared into his eyes. Your heart was beating faster than usual, you felt lightheaded, and the last thing you saw was Louis's panicked face before collapsing into his arms.
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The beeping sound of the heart monitor was what woke you; you look around the room only for your eyes to land on Louis's body resting on the chair next to your bed. You stirred in bed, trying to find a comfortable position to be, which caused Louis to open his eyes and reach out to grab your hand.

"The nurse told me what has been going on with you, and this isn't the first time in the infirmary, is it?" He said, trying not to sound too angry.

You sighed, "Louis if I told you the truth that I was starving myself, what would you think of me? I'm disgusted I hate every little thing about me, I'm not attentive or perfect...so why would you want to be with me?" you ask as tears slid down your face.

"(Y/N), you mean so much to me, you are extraordinary and remarkable in a way that I've never seen. When we started to spend more time with each other, I couldn't help but fall for you even more. I need you to promise me that you will never EVER starve yourself again, we'll get through this together" he finished with tears forming, you were now gazing into his eyes deeply and gave him a small genuine smile.

"Thank you, Louis-senpai. I'm happy to know that you feel that way," you whispered before feeling his lips collide against yours. Your lips moved in perfect sync; you finally felt so unbroken and complete.
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Once you got out of the infirmary, you didn't want to leave Louis's side, but you knew he had responsibilities and things he had to take care of, although you did like how he would respond to your messages instantly and take you to your classes. He had asked you to wait when your last period class was over, that he'd meet you there, but he was running a little late due to having to finish something in the Drama Club. You didn't mind that he was late though, that is until they showed up.

"Well, well, if it isn't little miss porky," one of the girls from your old group said as the rest snickered at her comment.

"It's disgusting how you can eat so much, like do you ever stop?" someone else's comments.

"Yeah, no wonder you're so alone; the only reason why we hung out with you is because you're easy to manipulate," another says.

You felt like it was starting all over again; you couldn't move, and all you could do was listen to their insults and take it in like you've always had. You tried to ignore what they were saying, but their insults were like knives stabbing you in the back; you wanted it to end.

"Do you three mind telling me what you just said to Miss. (Y/N)?" All heads turned to the new voice that echoed through the hallway.

"Louis-senpai!!!" the group of fangirls screeched in excitement that the most valuable and powerful guy at school was approaching them.

"The way you're behaving is revolting and how you're treating an underclassman is unacceptable, if I see you bothering Ms. (Y/N) again then I will have no choice then to talk to the administrator about your careless actions and have you all suspended but for now you will all do rigorous community service, am I clear?" He questioned, his glare venomous as they all squeaked and quickly nodded before scampering off.

"You didn't have to do that," you said quietly as your eyes gazed at the floor you then felt him embrace you.

"(Y/N), I told you we were going to get through this together, and I plan to help you get rid of all those negative people and thoughts in your life. You're not alone anymore; I'll be there by your side no matter where you are," he said with determination; he was caught off guard when you hugged him tightly.

"I'm glad I now know that I have someone as wonderful as you to love and trust." you say, and for the first time in a really long time, you genuinely smiled. You truly weren't alone anymore.