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nature pov

everyone was hitting me up & it was getting annoying

guessing nahmir told everybody or victoria told everybody.

things can't be the same anymore i made a mistake and no one will ever treat me the same after it

glizzy : yo i really wanna talk to u .

i sighed looking down at my phone . i wanted to talk to him to but i don't even know where to start

i'm sorry ?

forgive me ?

" so you just gon keep avoiding them " ? jasmine asked

" i'm not avoiding them i'm just keeping my distance and giving everyone some time " .

" avoiding them " . she repeated

" well i don't think they want to speak to me " .

" glizzy is literally blowing your phone up " .

i slowly ran my hands down my face sighing heavily

" i'm just scared jas " .

" i understand that but you're never going to get over your fear if you keep letting it bother you " .

me : i'm at my sisters house we can talk here if u want

i locked my phone throwing it to the other side of the bed

" he's coming " ? she asked

i nodded yes

" look just tell him the truth okay don't keep nothing from him, just be completely honest and open to whatever glizzy has to say " .

and of course i would because i know glizzy is hurt i just want him to know that i'm sorry, i really am

after waiting about 30 minutes glizzy finally arrived

i heard him walk into the room but didn't make eyes contact with him until he spoke

" where's autumn " ?

" sleep " .

he sniffed sitting in a chair from across the room " so why'd you do it " ?

wow , just like that

" glizzy after me and you got into that argument i went to victoria's house not thinking she would be home but she wasn't nahmir was . he let me in and told me victoria's whereabouts so i just waited until she came back " .

" but he knew something was really wrong with me so i just ended up telling him everything , that's when he offered me a blunt but i told him i didn't a drink so we did both.. got drunk & high " .

" i swear glizzy i wasn't in the right state of mind at all & neither was nahmir but i came on to him & i was wrong i can admit that " .

" my brother nature my fucking brother " ! he yelled causing me to jump

i began to cry hard as hell looking at him " glizzy i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm so so sorry i don't know what else i can say besides i'm sorry what i did wasn't love at all , i fucking hate myself for that i'm sorry glizzy " .

" okay you're sorry i get it , it's just the fact that this was my brother and victoria's boyfriend nature " .

" i know , i've hurt everyone and i know things will never be the same & im learning to be okay with that because this is a lesson i will learn from " .

he just looked at me with anger written all over his face " listen nature i can't forgive you right on the spot-

" and i'm not asking you to just take as much time as you need " .

" we can work something out about me seeing autumn " he said changing the subject

i didn't want to continue to talk about it anymore so i just went along " okay "

he stood up grabbing his keys and phone off the dresser walking out

i began to cry , there was this tight feeling in my chest , my hands we getting completely sweaty & my face was turning red

i ran outta the door trying to catch glizzy one more time

" glizzy just forgive me " .

he sighed walking up to me " you stay safe & be strong for the little one " .

he let go of my hand walking out the door .

i fell down balling my eyes out . this hurt more than any other break up that me and glizzy have ever been through

maybe this is a sign that we all just need to start over from scratch.