Life

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I need help. I have no one to share my problems with. They might get sick of my issues. I need a best friend who will listen and not just hug me and lie about how "It's gonna be ok."

I have suicidal thoughts all the time. Sometimes I feel the need to end it all but then I think about how it might get a little better... but when it does, something always goes wrong. And just like that, the cycle starts all over again. And again. And again.

I want someone to see that I'm broken but I can be fixed but it's hard and people need to understand that. It's mostly hard when you yourself can't think of how to say it to someone because you don't know how they'll react or how they'll think of you as a person.

The only thing they'll think is that "this person is messed up" or "they needs serious help". They won't think about how they're hurt or struggling. People don't give a shit. There are only some special ones who listen, who see things, who make sure you're ok, and most importantly who cares.

But then again, no one actually cares, do they?