Rejected [Poem]

I fight many battles unseen to you.

I am tired.

I feel like sometimes the mental pressure is too much.

I take one step forward and two steps back.

Why does this always happen to me?!

It feels like a curse. It is true that children live what they learn.

My life has gotten worse.

What will I earn

From this path I'm on?

I've been rejected. It hurts.

I am afraid to bare myself because of the pain I've felt.

The tears come forth. Rejected again.

The seriousness on your face shows the truth.

I thought you would've understood

Because you get me.

You never stared at me with affection nor held my hand.

Rejected.

The pangs of my heart make me fear our unexpected encounters

Eye contact.

Memories may rush to my mind of the good times we had.

A glance will make me wonder what's running through your mind.

Rejected.

I don't want to feel the pain again that made me go mad with depression and suicide.

Avoidance.

You didn't want to see nor speak with me.

Insomnia.

My mind races with many thoughts and the tears fill my eyes.

Rejected.

The reality knocks me off balance. It's going to take time to accept.

The words struck like lightning and echoed thunder.

Book closed.