why / ON HOLD

The Script

this was a few months ago at a church camp im not going to lie ,he was on drugs almost the whole time we didn't really see him around he would hide away in the boys cabin doing wax hitting a bong smoking blunts basically anything weed related some guys from Colorado were able to sneak in a bunch considering they don't check our bags at camp.his "addiction" i don't know if it was at that point but it must've been anyways it went so far to where he looked for something stronger,we don't know what he OD on but that doesn't matter what matters is that there are people out there in the world willingly selling to people like us who most of the time aren't in the right mental capacity and just want an out.me i take it out in the occasional smoke or alcohol and other very very and what could be deadly copping methods. im not trying to give you our life stories even though it may seem but what im trying to say is if you have someone to talk to mom dad sister brother cousin aunt uncle friend a doctor anyone than please talk to them and reach out the thing about my family is they are set in their ways you say you are struggling and they say its because you need god .we dont need toxic people like that in our lives yes you can have your beliefs but if they try forcing you into those beliefs get out run as fast as you can you should decide for yourself not have them choose for you and that was also daniels problem growing up in a nondenominational christian home and being the grand kid of a pastor known through the whole world. its very hard it may not seem like it but you go through eternal battles every day and when you don't have an outlet you choose unhealthy coping methods.

pls get help if this can help anyone struglling with drug abuse alcohol depression an eating disorder anxiety anything it may be then i would be glad yea i think its fie to smoke a blunt every once in a while but when it moves to you needing to smoke everyday o r it not being satisfying is when you have a problem anf you need to reach out drugs have ruined many peoples lives and ive seen it first hand .im not saying oh you cant do anything im just saying stop and think and if you notice its getting out of control or someone else notices then reevaluate get help . trust me iit will be worth it.

now cousin i just want to say i know you cant see this and it saddens me to the point where you have no idea.it also saddens me that you didn't reach out not to long before your birthday we were talking and sharing a can of coke (ok you can say all the corona jokes now but our family doesn't care about germs if your even a speck of related you drink or foods getting stolen or shared) you were a wonderful and unique person Daniel and i know we werent as close as some of the other cousins and that aso saddens me but im glad you were one of the cousins i was able to share somethign with and not mtter what we always some how ended up being*ight*with each i=and i like to believe we were *tight as hell* as you say

RIP baby D Booker

who knows maybe if you werent so lazy and were on a team you coulda made it to the NBA . ill miss you ";exeptional basketball skils and awesome musical skills i wish i could listen to you play the piano guitar or hear you sing all dya longim glad i got to hear you that one lst time even though it was a while ago i still remeber and i will cherish these memories